mA SwEeTeSt CrImEs oF pAsSiOn!

back ALIVE!!

2009-11-25T05:09:00.000-08:00

I have decided to re-activate my dead blog by supplying oxygen to it. I am in love with this new-'girly' OUTLOOK!!..hahahaha..anyway,those who have been disappointed with me with regards to my 'frequent' updates,my apologies.I have been busy with life. I am excited, tensed and anxious with whatever that is happening.. I am not upset but am hoping for the BEST!!:P..I love being showered with BHAJANS!! It lifts me up.makes me strong,breaks me down and tells me FAITH makes u STRONGER...well, I never expect anything from HIM in return of my faith..cause he makes sure I learnt a lesson well and deep enough. I know I am getting very emotional now.I should stop!..ANYWAY,we may go INLINE SKATING tommorrow!!!..if we do, I am going to embarass myself badly but I am sure I will enjoy my time with my LOVED ones...

anyway just to update what has been happening..some pics...

the outing to heaven with boo!

2009-03-17T09:45:00.000-07:00

Esplanade fever

2009-03-17T09:37:00.000-07:00

ESPLANADE has always been our fav. spot to chill..we decided to chill there after work

Its been quite some time since we went to town together..it was so fun!

In the train..holding hands...rubbing shoulders..and teasing each other..(a good reward for finishing my assignment on time)

We grabbed something from breadtalk and headed towards ourvenue, exchanging about our view on work and people around us.He makes me feel like i'm an angel and yes, the devil at times but I GUESS i have both of it in ME! We caught Karen Nunis Darkstone performing...WE love MUSIC.

Anyway, peeps there's this heineken Music club on the rooftop garden..nice ambience ,looks costly.a bar with class, i would say. We chose a spot and started munching down dinner..we gazed at the lights..and we started singing.i love the way he sings into my ear.( ok, i will not go there..hahahaha)

And, he sang me a song!...wanna hear?!click on the tab!

hey baby - vadi-my sweetheart

i love these pictures...

2009-02-26T11:11:00.001-08:00

The scene that depicts siva drinking the poison so that the innocent are not harm...

THE narasimma..what i love..amidst all the anger, can you spot the calm prakalathan?

i love this painting...krishna and radha...all attractive...

THE hero..hanuman..check out the details in the way his face is...god! i love the paintings!

The BROTHER!

2009-02-05T07:52:00.000-08:00

I am indeed proud to have a brother like mine...

He has moulded himself through experiences and dad's teachings. YES, i agree that my brother can be irritating, rude and very insensitive to others feelings at time. Well, I am not being defensive but he behaves like that when he feels that person deserves it..It's his way of saying, I don't like this aspect in you..hey, he never fakes himself for anyone..even ME! He has grown into a handsome, smart and cheeky man!

I am happy. because he finally reached for and won the light(my ladies will know what I AM SAYING). I feel so worried when he gets into messy situations. I am a very protective sister, U BREAK HIS HEART..simple thing, I BREAK YOUR FACE!...As jes says, he's a softie too...I hate to see my little brother cry cause he brings nothing but laughter in my life. Well he's well loved, respected , pampered and treasured by people around him. Even when I try sabo-ing him, JES will always be prepared to shield him and yes, hit back at Me! see, what I mean!

I was tired and tried calling him to fetch him. He obligied and waited 90 mins for me...on our ride back, we nearly hit a car. He changed his lane without signaling. My brother horned. He held onto my hands tightly...making me feel touched. Hell yea, I MISS BIKE RIDES WITH BEE!! (vadi more slower,safer)

After eating dinner, coming to the dam, we were stopped by police checks...hahaha...but we were told to go.. I told muthu, dey prob. thought after looking at him, oh, wife ah! since i look so matured! i know its crazy, even he laughed so hard...

Anyway Muthu(if u still have the habit of reading my blog), I never tell you this all the time,

I LOVE U!

Culture Conversations...:)

2009-02-01T06:44:00.000-08:00

I know I have been missing for a while...its february now...after my last post.

Please pardon me, I am so tired after work that I do not wish to switch on my laptop.

I just want to spend time with people, sleep and yes, eavesdrop on Muthu's phone calls(like he claims).

so Yes, Please tolerate my faithfulness to this blogspot...

The annual sastha pillaigal CNY beach affair was a enjoyable event...it was so popular that when we played dog and bone...there were audiences..hahahaha...

anyway back to the tittle, I had very colourful conversations with different people...

the friday, SKINHEAD GIG AT BUGIS...

I went to tekha, blue diamond to have dinner with my ladies. As I had to get worms for the weekend projects. I decided to call praba for help. He was so sweet to check it out for me! THANKS PRABA!!!..amidst his kavadi preparations. The girls went to do threading..I badly need one but just feel so lazy to go under the thread...argghhh!!!

We headed down to skinhead gig...it was in an alley in bugis...Fai met us there and I got myself 2 tops from dorothy Perkins. I was scared first...very scared.. I didn't want to go but I trusted AZE..so I went along... We were standing with her friends' band. My heart was thumping..I loved the music...the guitar and the drums makes you wanna dance. What shocked me was how they were dancing to it. They were moshing each other, in simple terms...shoving each other... till at some parts, they fall and get stepped on...OUCH! I went to chill with them and made new friends. HALIMUN AND MANDEEP SINGH...

I realised they are not what I perceived them to be, They were friendly funny and yes very , funky! The first question I asked, Isn't it painful? Their reply, its brotherhood..tomoro then pain...hahaha...I learnt that in singapore there are two types, ADELPHI AND FORUM. and they have their own Brothers who look after them..or are highly respected. Anyway, they have education. Halimun is an ITE graduate and Mandeep was the top '0' level student in normal academic stream this year. I got rid of the fear and am looking forward the next gig.

THE TAXI RIDE..

The both of us have been taking taxi since his bike went into ICU FOR THREE WEEKS NOW

poor him! but i have been having fun, walks...

So yes, the taxi driver had just paid respect to his late friend..and was starting his shift again.

I kept quiet BUT listened to him intensely... hE spoke about how music influences him and how he feels that indian music has it influences in western music...than he made this statement..I am a musician..no, I WAS a musician. I didn't wanna say anything so I kept quiet...But inside of me, I asked, Just because he stopped being a jazz pianist, does not mean he's not a musician. He still is...everybody is...RIGHT?! ever since, I did some readings on my music modules, alot of perceptions have changed and I am more open now to identify and respect other genres...

well, music is a way of life....

ok.bf nagging.wants to sleep.wants to say good night.wants me to turn off the laptop.

Byes.Before I scream at him!

P.S. ONE OF THE TOPS FROM FRI'S SHOPPING...I LOVE MY SHADES!

the night to recovery with loves

2009-01-04T05:55:00.000-08:00

Photos with dear ones !!!

Muthu and hema slackings!!

Nanz explanins...

Pictionary!

ok...hema is ok-ok in drawing..hahahaha

Charades!

vadi, close ur mouth la!

Not so aggresive pls! lol!

Haven't guess? too bad!

Muthu stuffing himself with food

Mamz and his ta-pou!

Flower Power

Lots of laughter!

CHANDRAMUKHI- HEMA

laughin at the other team!

THe maddy- substitute! now jes, stop laughing!

The smiley, serious and sexy!

Oops!

Personal shot

Henna 1

Nanz caught in the act!The pillow man!

I love ICE CREAM!

hema, i realised, we have the same family nose!....

Lil' one

Henna 2!

I like dis shot!

SLEEPY Jes!The hot lil bro!

KUDOS...to sisters who have always been there!

2009-01-04T05:10:00.000-08:00

Happy New YEAR! 2009!

I am happy that 2008 has passed and 2009 is here! Anyway, 2008 has been a rewarding year with lots of lessons to be learnt. I had best of times. I quarelled lesser with people around me. I learnt to keep my temper in check. I have learnt what people REALLY thought about me. I learnt how to have fun and appreciate people around me. I am glad 2008 was the way it was, and cannot wait to see what 2009 has in store with me...!

Anyway, the end of 2008 was abit rough, with tears and temper rising high...but I had my sisters...HEMA, NANDHINI and JES...I had lots of fun in hema and nana's place...we had food, PICTIONARY, CHARADES( with mama and yea, my very and yes " I have never" game...I LAUGHED AND DID HENNA, N PAINTED MY NAILS IN WEIRD COLOURS...baby finished work early and we spent our afternoon together..we didn't celebrate our NEW YEAR together cause I had to be at Jes' place to help out and he had a new party at his place..OF COURSE, i felt upset but there's always another NEW year!

Back to work, the weekends went smooth...weekays gonna start tomorrow.

Going back to assignments.. NO FUN!! the blog will be more bare...help me if u can by tagging and reminding me ..hahahaha

sends my love to all..who read even if u think i'm an enemy..haha

n yes, tha picturesque memories..

EMOTIONAL POST!

2008-12-29T22:08:00.000-08:00

i AM EMOTIONALLY TORMENTED...

I HAV ALWAYS WANTED US TO BE WE...US..BUT YOU NEVER

SHOWED IT MATTERS TO YOU! WHEN TIMES ARE BAD, I STILL INSIST WE

DO THINGS TOGETHER...WHEN YOU SAY, YOU CAN'T DO IT..I HAVE ALWAYS SAID

IT'S FROM US...MONEY ISN'T AN ISSUE! ITS THE FUCKING THOUGHT!

YOU KEEP SECRETS, KEEP TELLING ME LIES...

I KEEP GETTING EMOTIONALLY ABUSED, MENTALLY PRESSURED....

SCREAM AT ME, MAKE A SCENE, THREATHEN ME TO COMMIT SUCIDE....

I AM SO DONE AND OVER WITH YOUR DRAMA...WHEN WILL YOU

EVER LEARN I AM PART OF YOU!!!!

* i am feeling very emo...have crried for hours...dun ask me what happened..jus hope the best happens*

my holidays...going away..

2008-12-29T21:12:00.000-08:00

The picture depicts how i feel........

time to clear some trash...

2008-12-29T03:26:00.001-08:00

New Year is coming...

I hav cleared my wardrobe,cupboards and whatever that i feel is trash to be in there...

Life has been good...work was ok-ok...relationships were gettin better..

Before i welcome the New Year...I wanna clear some Trash!

Unwanted friendships...

I am not every girl's best friend...cause of my outspoken personality...my strong character and yes, THE person myself.

I maintain a low profile among strangers but once, I have hit it off with someone, I MAKE SURE they feel very special...

I made friends...no no.. I FOUND SISTERS at my work place, girls who have been there when I WAS cranky, stubborn, foolish, happy, sad, excited..They stood by me and will always stand by me.. I THANK GOD FOR PLANTING SUCH FLOWERS...

zee,marga,syah,ereen,shann,inah,herli,marianne,marita,russell,azeanna,kristy,fairuz,aida,vidya
....If not for these flowers, the garden would be so dull!!

Yes, to the point...Unwanted Friendships...

I have had people who came into my life as accquaintances and then friends ... NOW, i would prefer them to be STRANGERS...!

I try to be happy with everyone but if you prove you are not worth my time and friendship..I dun need U! I hate to argue against people's assumpation...cause That's what you think.. You never clarified it... AND YOU ASSUME YOUR ASSUMPATIONS are Right. gO AHEAD!

I may be the bitch of the year..but I never fake myself for anyone... I rather be SINCERE than Fake!

Well, I am not talking about ONE PERSON...its in general to those who have abused my trust and friendship...before the bad-mouths go talking..I am happy with who had ,have and will be with me...

so to the rotten trash, thanks for the valuable memories...and good bye to your selfish friendship...

if it ain't u baby!..piano by FAI!

2008-12-17T21:39:00.000-08:00

photos....more to come

2008-12-17T20:41:00.000-08:00

man and lady

the ladies

school holidays...fun Fun FUN!

2008-12-17T20:16:00.000-08:00

Work is over for the year!! I M SO SO SO GLAD!hahahaha...I do miss my girls at work and my children.I cannot wait to see them next year...

Anyway, there will be lots of update...

PHOTOS...

VIDEOSS...

SONGS....

There are pending outings...(soonok, gurlies)

And there's a movie i am dying to watch for...VARANAM AAYIRAM...

i watched this scene on YOUTUBE...and decided I MUST WATCH WITH HIM....

surya...melts me! hahahahaha

anyway, i am going on a road trip to malacca with family!...excited

watch out for mega updates!

The cobwebs to be cleared...

2008-11-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

As the tittle goes, it has been eons since i updated...

I have been busy with work...love life and commitments...

Bhajans have been taking up the weekends and friday nights and yes, he has been tired...

Love life is great...i think so...hahahahaha

I just stared 5 seconds, thinking what to type next.WORK drains my energy, soul and mind.

As much as I love the kids, sometimes i feel my brain is thinking of so many things of one time, I FEEL like I am spinning on a ball...

Today was fine..great for the beginnin of the week..I wish 2 weeks would fly by and the school break would just appear in front of me... :)

I just wanted to share what I saw in a shopping centre. I was playing with one of my students, when A lady came running towards a man and child. The child was playing in the car mobile.

Man: Where did you go? You said you went to the toilet. what are you doing here? You lied?!(in a loud booming voice)

lady: I'm sorry, but had to go up and pick this. I'm sorry. Please understand.

Man: You Promised! you promised not to go to the office!You said this is a day for us and her(pointing to the child.)

Lady: I'm sorry, I have to pick it up , the comapany wants me to work on it by tomorrow. I will do it after she takes a nap later. Please, I'm sorry!

Man: You're so MONEY-MINDED! why did you insist on marrying me and getting pregnant?

Lady: Yes, I am! How are we going to pay for anything with the peanuts, you bring home?! the car, the house and HER!

Man: Fine! I don't need the car, house or u! I ONLY NEED HER!

The man walks away with child in hand...

Lady: U go away! I'll go to work...

Lady storms off...

the child...was laughing...

I was shocked, will it happen to me...?! will i become career crazy?! will i choose work over family?!

hopefully when I pounce on my blog after years and read this, I will realise what an important lesson i learnt...

TO VALUE FAMILY AND ITS LOVED ONES!...

TO de stress!

2008-10-01T07:36:00.000-07:00

I have been busy shopping and handlin some personal matters...

Deepavali shopping has already started.. and i think I SHOULD STOP!I shopped at little india's bazzar( the small one)..the temporary market..geylang bazzar..lol.

so He said...enough! But i still have my bangles that I over-wear..and my dangling earrings..i cannot go out without it...lol.DEEPAVALI IS GOING TO BE SMASHING...

I am persipring after the 30 minute dance freak out moment...lol. I love dancing. Probably when I'm older, i'll enrol myself into line dnacing with the other seniors..hahahahahahaha

I am tired...and I MISS HIM LOTS...

i know it makes NO sense..but hey wth?? this is my blogspot..

Being boringly Busy

2008-09-21T08:37:00.000-07:00

sorry for those who have been visiting..only to see my dearest PRANTA'S music video

THe reason is my busy schedule..
Mon-WED...tution after 7...
THursay is my only free day....
Friday ..tuition again
i work on saturdays...
sundays...tuition and work in d afternoon...

Busy earning money...hoping to save enough..for my further studies

Well, MARRIAGE can wait..not sure if I HAVE got the groom..(vadi is gonna kill me...hahaha)

Anyway, love life is at PEAK...for the moment..

with him, gifing me suprises...sending lovey dovey msgs...choosing me over bruders...

well, it comes in seasons..so ya enjoying while I CAN...

something to share...

She was a happy teacher who loved teaching her children but there was a child who often disturbed her mind...so she wished HE would NOT attend class on that day...her wish did not come true...she dreaded to see HIM...and was pushed to the extreme of having a horrible class...

After class, she shut and latched the door...tears ran down her cheeks and she could not stop sobbing...she was ashamed of herself for giving up hope and LOVE...HOW COULD SHE RESENT A CHILD WHO WANTS HER LOVE??? why did she feel this way?

He was special in his own way, he only interacted with her...and loved to hold her and be close to her..he could not socialise and would love it if his hands were wet with saliva..this did not disgust her...what made her feel bad was, she could not HELP him! he was not given the correct attention and the right teaching method because he was just too special to be in there...FACING a denying parent, all she could do was to reassure the parent, she will try her best...

He loved rubbing his nose against her bosoms and pulling her hair with a tug..the moment she becomes firm, he curls up into a little ball, making her feel remorseful...she would console him...and herself...but now, the class was getting out of hands...so she decided to put her foot down and asked him to sit even when he whined, it fell on her deaf ears...

that day, before he left, he said I love u...without any eye contact...she whispered I love u tooo...and he blabbered.. .I LOVE U MORE THAN MY MUMMY...AND HER HEART sank to the floor..

dat is why, she felt teaching was the best for her..and he was her PERSONAL favourite...

THE she is no other but YOURS TRULY...

he can melt u away!

2008-08-25T10:25:00.001-07:00

some photos to view

2008-08-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

weakly me!

2008-08-13T02:37:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, something horrible happened.

went to see the doctor. And I was diagnosed with UTI.

It was my second time and my body was really making me feel weak.

The doctor said if it happens more than 5 times, means i have kidney stones!

sighhhhzzz...

TODAY!

I woke up with my mum panicking beside me after feeling my hot temperature.

I was running a fever of 39.4 degree celcius. My brother helped me to sms to my superiors.

I got a areply...

Ok Devi! Take Care! No more MCs for UTI in future if u don't drink lots of water n keep your health! this is aviodable! will speak more of this when you get back!

oh ya! I asked god to make me feel sick! gibberish! I hate my situation.

*&^%$#8#$%^&*! go figure!

I want my loved ones beside me nowww!!!

2008-08-10T08:58:00.000-07:00

1. goddess durga, 2. Katong Rojak, 3. blindfolded., 4. Gizmo, 5. Bhavana,Madhavan, 6. Drinks, 7. Tropical Sunset, 8. mango with sticky rice, 9. Happy, 10. 2 months + 26 days, 11. don't worry be happy new year, 12. Sounds from the past

I went thru a blog and saw this interesting, time consuming activity. Mid-nite and I am still ALONE! so ya, I had to do a photo mosaic answering the questions. so ya here it goes

1.what is your name? Durga devi sivaji ( I found this statue, truly a classic piece of art work)

2.what is your favourite food? right now? ROJAK! ( i m craving for it!)

3. what high school did you go to? DeyI sec ( I miss those days and my uniform)

4. what is your favourite colour? Red.( i was mesmerized by the puppy!)

5. Who is your celebrity crush? Madhavan. (that same smile. now jes, don't laugh your heads off)

6. What is your favourite drink? Magarita ( its been so long since I tasted one)

7.what is your favourite vacation? Hawaii ( my honeymoon destination.decided!)

8. what is your favourite dessert? Mango with sticky rice ( i need to go on a DIET!)

9.what do you want to be when you grow up? A teacher, someone who nurtures and makes life better!

10.What do you love most in life? Family, nothing would make more happy than motherhood!

11.What is one word that describes you? Happy-go-lucky!

12. What is your username? Retrochokri ( the retrofied cassette and the music that evolves my life!)

All the time in the world...

2008-08-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

i AM ALL ALONE...

My Family and boyfriend are Over tha seas. Sastha Pillaigal were invited to the Pontian temple to sing for the temple prayers. So, they are there. and me , because of work commitments, have to wait anxiously to see my mum at the door. I took a cab back home after work, went to get my dinner and came back home to get intimate with my sofa and laptop. I needed the rest. awwww...Bliss!

I watched Dhool. I was amazed with the costumes. It was better than last year. Dances so so. Make-up was extravagant. I am so glad that instead of seeing hip hop dances...there are lots fushion..semi classical and new dances.Congrats on the winners who qualified.you truly deserve it! It nice seeing guys embracing those kinds of dances! But i truly hope that the whole season would not be of the same dance styles. let's see how it goes!

I need to lose weight desperately! seriously! i feel so fat! my mother says i'm fatter than her, wen she was young! anyway i showed vadiveilan, my mother's photo9when she 23!) and he said we look alike, but she looked beautiful naturally! Well, my mother is truly a natural beauty. She was forbidden to wear makeup when she was young. Thanks to that, she has got great SKIN!

Well, I do not really look good when I am Natural. My superiors at work think I look very good with colours on my face. I do not deny the fact, that I only look good with beautiful colours!

I just feel children should learn to be comfortable, not just with aesthetically pleasing exterior but the interior that never changes its philosphy for anything lesser.

Nonetheless, I need to buy Make-up! and make-up removers. I so do not want to do this but I guess I HAVE NO CHOICE! #$%^&*@ WASTE OF MONEY!

I want to dance...burn the floor! And yes! getmyself INKED!

Jes, shall we do a duo!jus u and me!

Try if you DARE!

2008-08-09T09:44:00.001-07:00

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ALAS...some air to breathe...

2008-08-09T00:20:00.000-07:00

I have got some air to breathe at last. I have been tired after tuitions, bhajans and work. I have been having a fun time with ANDREW (MY TUTEE). He's really cute and adorable in his own way. The little one is really a darling!

Bhajans have been FUN yet exhausting. which means my weekends and our friday nights are burn! hahahaha. My boyfriend would not forgo bhajans, just to be with me. well, the amount of fun,we have singing and bonding would never replace ANYTHING!so I do not blame him!

Sometimes, I think for myself, do i really hate anyone? EXCEPT FOR THE FAT BITCH WHO DOESN'T DESERVE AN INCH OF RESPECT! ( calm down). I dun really hate anyone easily unless you prove yourself to be a complete undignified soul! So in my hate list!...I only have her name there. and it would probably never get erased!hahahahahaha....

I have got the right job to ease my feelings and to show LOVE heals all..

My children tell me how to love, care and share...every other day!

They simply take my breath away! with their smiles, I love you, hugs and the ability to act maturely and innocently.

National day celebrations at school. Time for me to use my new camera!!! some photos...and near-to-perfect EDITS!

anyway...I've got pink extensions...and I've started to read...have been deprived of reading that I read a book in 3 days! .need more books!.

HAHAHAHAHA

The tru-blue SINCHAPOREAN!

WYNEN AKA JAPANESE DOLL AND ME

ELOUISE'S BIRTHDAY!WE WILL MISS U!

The BEST CLASS PHOTO

MY FRENCH-CHINESE DARLING!

ME AND MY PARTNER-IN-CRIME,AZE!

THE cute AUDREY!

EYES ALL OVER?

OUR LITTLEST RASCAL!

A MUST TO CAM-WHORE!

TOP VIEW!

My GIRLY GIRLFRIENDS!

SHE can dance better than those blokes!

SHE is one gorgeous TEACHER!

BELLA.ME.HER TONGUE

FOOD WORKS WITH KIDS!

BUBBLE TIME!

OH SCARY SHIT!

CHEE HERN!

THE LAST PHOTO WITH HAPPY FACES!

It truly does! love my two soccer crazy GIRLS!

2008-07-13T06:14:00.000-07:00

B4 someone starts screaming UPDATE!

2008-07-09T08:18:00.000-07:00

I have been plain lazy to blog.

Maybe I should SHUT THIS PAGE DOWN!

hahahahaha....

Anyway, I have been busy. I have gone back to tutoring! (Thanks to jes)..WITH Him, making me feel lonely after he got his night job at MacDonalds! This new replacement seems to ease off the feeling just a bit!

I have not exercised for the week!..gggggrrrrr!

I AM GETTING FATTER!

anyway, gowri gave me a beautiful gift!and his mum gave me a handmade card. NICE!

am i GIFTED?...well, for me to know, for you to find out!

WORK HAS BEEN SUPER DUPER CRAZY!enough said!

Videos that caught my attention!

2008-06-25T06:36:00.000-07:00

a Rushy Blogging

2008-06-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

My Birthday jus finished with me getting a year older,hopefully, a year wiser, a year nicer and a year sweeter!

hahaha.

I had a very-refreshing 22 years old birthday.( even tho, I got my P on my birthday! arggghhh!)I had organisers for my birthday, who made me do, say and wear crazy stuffs. I had fun! seriously had fun!...well, my birthday was so SPECIAL i dun wanna share it, cos I really want it to be MY special Birthday!

On my birthday, i WENT out with him. to kenny rogers to eat. IT WAS medicore. We went to esplanade. AND i saw 3 other people celebrating their BIRTHDAY! same as mine! I saw this group of girls, celebrating their gfs' birthday together. N I started to miss MY GFS! i would love to celebrate my birthday with them, They are wacky crazy and simply make me feel like a little girl. Nonetheless, My birthday was fun! with my P!

Daddy has gone for his north india pligrimage trip he goes all the time, I miss him! and can't wait to have him back!

Sastha Fiesta was a SUCCESS! i love having my sundays off! I had great fun with my bruders and sistas! Jes drove daddy's car back. I was so so so TIRED!

I love jogging! god, i need to buy a swim suit! i miss swimming!

anyway, for the month of june, i didn't take LEAVE OR MC! super proud of myself!hahahahaha

I love HIM more than ever.
He fills me with love more than before.
I love him More than WORDS!

LAZY-blogging!

2008-06-24T07:34:00.000-07:00

marianne,my angel!

My 12 midnite gift! wah liao, jes!

i DIDN'T know how i looked!

I was too shocked to speak!

Grey contactS fron NESH!

Kenny Rogers!

I suit the VAMPIRE!

pINK is THE NEW-BLACK!

i HEART her!ereen

22 years in earth!

A few words!

2008-06-15T08:42:00.000-07:00

This week has been smashing!

Joggin. Badminaton.Bajans.The Incredible hulk. Kung Fu Panda. Father' day soccer. Urmi melam compeitition. Shoppin at THIS FASHION. Silly Mistakes. Famous amos cookies. NEW CAMERA!.Sunday out with Family. PC show. Norris Road. Nachos. Pasar Malam. Stickers. Dresses. Great Singapore SALE!.

NEW CAMERA WITH 2 4gb cards! I m delighted!

~ An Ass-kicking LIfe ~

2008-06-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

I am having lots of fun in life. Jes got her driving license which means I can club without having to worry about transport! *giggles*. The previous weeks have been pretty exhausting for me. I travelled to JB, Pontian for bhajans. Siva krishnan temple mass bajan.

I had to bid farewell to my first-love at work, EARNIE! She was my mentor, darling and my best mate! I went to play badminton.FUN!. I went Jogging on Tuesday. I jogged all the way to Pravin's badminton court. It was a long long jog. I was like wishing it would end soon! Thank god, I had him with me! I needed the motivation. And I am mastering how to play the racket game.

Although, I suck at it big time! I am trying my best! Devan was my partner and he was like- running here and there! I was like...so blur!

Father's day is coming! the Fathers and Sons are going to have a football game on Saturday night. tag along to SUPPORT!

Sunday, i've got work and probably hang out with him for a while. With Aadi Masam coming up, and Sastha Pillaigal fully booked on the weekends. There goes my special time with him.

And A Special Message to All the Irritating People who exist in my life...

I have no sympathy. so be it. I am a heartless person. so be it.
I set my limits when i sympathise and analyse situations.
If i know your true colours, I would not hesitate to put my foot down and treat you bad.
Ya, maybe one part of you is really angelic. The rest are just devilish.
If the other people see the angelic side, they will probably have yet to see your facade fade away.
I have my reasons to distance from you, and neither do i expect you to have a friendly conversation with me.
U can call me whatever u want! I dun give a fricking care.
I love my life. It truly seems better without having as close as before.

THANKS for making my life a much more beautiful place!

Pictures to feast!

2008-06-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

I am a visual Perosn. I love seeing pictures so ya...lazy to type. would update soon! till than! the pictures never lie how much of fun I am having in my LIFE!

weddin.bangkok.LOves!

2008-05-29T10:24:00.000-07:00

Tamilan Hit fav. nOW! enjoy

2008-05-29T07:49:00.000-07:00

Get Your Own Hindi Songs Player at Music Plugin

My NEW priced Possesion!

2008-05-28T22:18:00.000-07:00

I have received what I have been looking forward to!!!

My first ever splurge! and it may be my last!!

I have received my COACH bag and wristlet!!

TADA.....

I am super duper HAPPY!!!lovin every moment I live!

Bangkok Review!

2008-05-22T07:54:00.000-07:00

The experience is undescribable. I had tons of fun with my family.

Bangkok is a place to de-stress. SHOP TILL YOU DROP. MBK is a must-go mall when you visit bangkok. I would recommend Asia Hotel because its very near to MBK. I shopped the most in MBK. The prices were good and the people are super nice...(except for some arrogant ones). The hotel serves YUMMY breakfast.The itenary for bangkok.

FIRST DAY

13.30 check in at changi airpot

1530 boarding...TG414

1930 landed in bangkok and checked in hotel.

2000 - 2130 Sight-seeing in MBK

2130-till next morning drinking, slacking and having fun in hotel room

The first day was relaxing. I bought soveniours for colleagues and basically, looked around to see favourites and we bought our dance costume stuff. it was really fun. That night was simple, we had macdonald's and KFC WITH absolut Mango! so yummy. saw the movie..SAW!so freaky!

SECOND DAY

0700 wake up

0900 journey starts to floating market

1130 journey ends

1230 Pratunam market

1630 return to hotel

1700 slackin in hotel room

1730 lunch cum dinner

1900 shopping in MBK

2200 head back hotel

2400 sleep!

The second day was really fun! with the boat ride, at the floating market. it was super crazy! hahahaha...it was fun getting squashed amidst many boats.Pratunam was okay. As we were there on a public holiday, most of the shops were closed. I didn't get much at the market. we bought boxers, I bought bermudas, shorts, a top, earrings,shoes and many more. did i say i didn't get much? hahahaha Dinner was fantastic.yummy saefood tomm-yumm. Pineapple fried rice, chicken in basil sauce,mixed vegetables, prawns and mango salad. We were really hungry butt he diiner truly satisfied our hunger! The eatery is located few meters from the hotel. It is called Little hut. Great food at affordable price! We had lots of time in our hand so we decided to head down to MBK. I bought a bag for mummy, bedroom slippers to wear at work, cap, sandals, a tube top and i can't remember. hahahaha..tried juicy mangos! went back to hotel and saw swamp devil.

That night, I had an encounter. Shuddering windows followed by a ring. it kept going louder. I woke up and went to the other room. I was scared but felt much better after changing room. Irritatingly Suspicious.

LAST DAY

0800 breakfast

1000 MBK

1300 RETURN to hotel to go back home

1330 leave hotel

1445 check in

1615 boarding..TG409

1730 LANDED at home.

We checked out earlier so we can go shop at MBK. WE shopped till 1300 and headed back to the hotel. We collected our luggage and headed back home. I loved my flight back! it was cosy and nice. I MISS THE DAYS I WAS THERE,WITH MY FAMILY. they are my family, and No1 stands a chance in breaking us. Love u all!

hemzy's 19th AND mother's DAY!

2008-05-11T08:49:00.000-07:00

I am pleased that we are done and over with the dance! hahahaha...

We rock and we need to settle our costume, that's all.

I have been busy with my babygal's birthday. Hemzy turned 19.

I was walking to dance practice when I saw this chick approach me and go.. I love dancing too( respondin to my top)...I was shocked and surprised. It was HEMA with her friends.

After dance, went home and got changed to surprise Hema.

We went over to her place and gave her a cake at midnight. she was thrilled.

The next day, I went out with them again..* hUSH hush* it's supposed to be a low profile outing

I and Jes got a crazy taxi driver who was talking to himself...We were hungry..

When we reached our destination, we were so happy!

I had fun taking lots of pictures with my girlies.

sOMEone Caught my eye...someone cute. and that someone waved goodbye as I left. hahahaha

*giggles*

I love my boyfriend TRULY! seriously, it was just for the night, being cheeky with my sisters! hahahaha...

Went out with our beaus to see the movie " MADE WITH HONOUR"
( my maid of honour would definitely be JES.HAHAHAHA )

As we were taking a romantic bike ride back, the traffic police stopped us...what happened was totally a WASTE of Time. SO YA, it just shows Singapore's police officers have so much of time, so little cases, they pick on anyone...*sighz*

My darlings at the toilet!

The punk pair

The PRINCESS pair

I look evil!

MY FAVOURITE GIRLS!

Mother's day!!!

It has been ages since I saw my paternal grandma so THE SIVAJI FAMILY with two rascals went to whompoa to see our beloved old lady. She was happy to see us.. My aunt had bought a cake for the "mummies".. We sang the mother's day song and ate the cheesecake.. Dad dropped me off at work. It was good as usual. I wanted to bring my mother out and treat her to yummy food!

After many rejected calls, I was able to get a reservation at SANUR indonesdian restaurant at CENTERPOINT.. The food was mediocre, my peronal favourite was the TAHU TELOR! after dinner, we went walking. It has been so long, since we walked together!

I loved it alot!

Mummy wanted ice cream..so we went Hagen-Dazs. it was so funny. I love my family!

I love YOU all The same!

The RASCALS!

mY dad and mum. she can never stop!

the CHUBBY and "shy" SIVAJIS

It is a must to self-indulge!

She is my Mum. my world.

Revival of my Blog!

2008-05-05T07:47:00.000-07:00

This blog has been collecting VIRTUAL DUST...so let's clean it up!

I Love dancing...
I am dancing with my girls again, i am so in love with it!
I am thinking of doing this every month..hahaha ( I know i'm crazy)

I went out with Gowri, Amaris and Zane on Saturday..hahaha

they are so funny..really adorable! hahahaha..IT WAS FUN HANGING OUT WITH THE BOTH OF U GUYS,even though we barely spoke to each other.

I bought 11 earrings on Saturday..Top-up!

Sunday was meeting and I was in someone else's classroom. A teacher who shared the same name. we know each other..and she hates me...because of lame reasons.

I am sick! And I want to get well!

I can't wait for my ticketss!hahaha..BANGKOK here i come!

* I have ordered COACH!hahahaha..My very-first SELF-INDULGENCE!

love love! i am in such a good mood... anyone know of a good online shopping site?

leave me a comment!

Sickly me...

2008-04-16T22:36:00.000-07:00

I am sick..My attendance at work is so BAD!..they are gonna fire me for being so sick

Ihatemybody'simmunesystem..

Anyway, my superiors are understanding..(hopefully)..I vomitted in class and was a GONER in my second class.I couldn' stay longer and decided to head back home..I was super Tired..i took a cab back..slept and woke at 7..vomitting again..argh..

Saw the doctor, got the jab and came back home for family dinner.

(Nalini akka was in town and my uncles came by to my house for dinner)

lol, we were talking about the night before...JES AND HER ANTICS

Mybodywasfailingoutonme...

I vomited my dinner out...SO UPSET WITH MYSELF!

now I'm home...fullofGUILT...

A LESSON LEARNT...

I feel lonely at times...when my boyfriend chooses his friends over me..I have to live by it, I GUESS! i was sick yesterday and he chose to play badminton with his/my bajan mates.. I didn't say anything...he was in yishun and yet he preferred to be with his friends than his sickgirlfriend..CALL ME PETTY...but if you are in my situation, you will understand how i feel..IF i did that, my boyfriend would question me..your friends more important than me?...hahahaha...that's him..this is ME...tho i spoke about it to him, he apologised saying he never realised it..LOL...

sometimesItakelifeforgrantedbutmanytakemeforgrantedsowhatdoIdoaboutthosepeople?

I have learnt a lesson...NEVER to depend on anyone...and to realise no one would LOVE U more than yourself...hahahaha

photos.OVERDUED photos.AND PUMP ROOM!

2008-04-07T08:20:00.000-07:00

True self!

ALL MY GILA GIRLIES!

THE HARVARD UNI. COUPLE!

SEXY.SWEET AND SIOW!

GuG khakis

My HARVARD UNI.BOY!

side profiles!

God knows! who vadi was smiling at!

My INAH bina!

pOLAroid Us

Prince and Me

Cheeky Monkey

Milo McFlurry?

Vrrooom!

my SUN shine!

Photos!

2008-04-06T07:35:00.002-07:00

mUMmy's birthday.Aida's Party. and some thoughtsss!

2008-04-06T07:35:00.001-07:00

Mum and Aida( mY colleague) have their birthdays fall on the same day...4th april.. I wished mum birthday and I went to work..Everyone was excited!! We were going to club together after a very long time...lol...I was going with my boyfriend. I had an interesting conversation with my (TO BE)sister-in-law, Gowri!

hahahaha...

I wore my warehouse Mini-skirt with my floral shirt( looking decent) and vadi wore his white Fila shirt with a vest!...HOT!so the HARVARD UNI. look! I swear I will never wear the skirt again when I go on the bike!argghhh!

Anyway,I had FUN!Vadi doesn't really like ENGLISH music so he decided to sit down while I was having fun with my girlies on the floor. It was super FUN! I just realised I love HOUSE MUSIC!...my dancing partner, EARNIE!

I have no pictures!...sad sad..hope they will give it to me soon!lol

SOME QUESTIONS

What will happen to ME if i got high while clubbing without my boyfriend? WILL I BE ABANDONED OR SLAPPED ACROSS MY FACE?

I asked vadi this as we were leaving...

He replied..."After all, You're my lady. I am not leaving you behind just because you're high. Of course, I wouldn't be happy But I will definitely want you to COME BACK HOME.

HAHAHAHAHA...call me lucky or blessed!

I KNOW I AM!lol

P.S. I reckon if you love live band..GO PUMP ROOM!no i'm not a FREQUENT clubber! I do it when I feel like HAPPY! Gowri, we go another day...with NO EXCESS BAGGAGE! lol

Superb performance by indian boy!

2008-04-03T01:23:00.000-07:00

Everytime i see this...I tear...very emotionally touched!

girls.DRUNK.DANCING.slacking and Bonding!

2008-03-31T05:18:00.000-07:00

The past week has been busy for me.I had serious FUN! I did lots of bonding, bitching with a capital B, AND LOVING!

Wednesday night...

After work, I went out with My BEAST! It has been so long since we met and spend time as he has been doing overtime. I loved the night. Looking at the stars and admiring him and his smile...hmmmmph....We went to Madhan's to eat( our favourite eating place). I wanted to get a beautiful PUNJABI suit for Sunday! I got two!..i love pay day!

Thursday..

Something happened at home. So I applied for urgent leave. I waited for Aadithiya to come home after school and bought him with me to skin center. I was surprised how curious or KPO singaporeans are. My martial status was SINGLE on the application form. They looked at me and said " you are single?" I was "yes!". The malay service staff gave me this smirk.. I was like..what was that for?..She smiled(fake).." than who is he" pointing to Aadi who was insisting on sitting on my lap. "he's my cousin" and she smiled. I was asked the same questions..by the dermatologist, counter staff and pharmacist. I was tired of answering the same question.. OVER and Over!

I bought one of punjabi suits for alteration. Aadi was exhausted but adamantly wanted to take the train. We took the bus back home. I bathed and got ready to meet my LOVES DOVES!

They were talking about wearing dress, so I got my little black dress, out of my closet. I was dressed.lol.when I am not?...whatever!I was so happy to see the both of them after so longgggg.

NITHYA AND SHALINI.

they looked stunningly beautiful! We had dinner at Riverside Restaurant. The food is good! SERVICE SUCKS! we started taking pictures. and we walked down to Clarke Quay. We had Hagen-Dazs. We sat by the river, taking more photos and laughing. I LOVE MY GIRLSS!

Friday night...

Tiring day. WORK, LAME LECTURE and Clubbing...

I went clubbing after so long time with honey, his sista, cousins and my own BRUDERS.

Annoyingly, I was disturbed by a certain phrase I HEARD...I am trying my best to forget the past and move on...its not that easy...

Anyway, after making us walk one whole round, we headed to BOSS! We got the V.I.P place because we bought a bottle. I did not want to drink as I had to go back to work the next day. When offered, I did not refuse and kept gulping it down. The 3rd glass.. I WAS HIGH. i was dancing like a mad woman on the dance floor...No, I did not try to be funny with anyone or vice versa! I WAS HAVINGFUN..ROCKING WITH GEJAX!GOWRI! AND THIS GROUP OF CHINESE GIRL...i had GOOD CLEAN FUN! the crowd was DECENT...i liked the crowd, not rowdy! DJ was good. I liked his music. I went home 5.30..tired and shagged...

Saturday

Work. My whole family including my boyfriend had gone to Jb to visit a temple. I hate to stay at home alone! SO I went over to Vadi's place to slack...with gowri and his mum! HAHAHAHA...I could co-exist with them...no problems..my eyes were closing and I NEEDED MY BED. i WENT HOME TO SLEEP!I can't wait for Sunday!

Sunday

Sunday, I was off! I woke up at 11 am. and Got ready for the special event. My sistas..HEMA AND NANDHINI were performing! I was going to see the performance with JES, GOWRI and my Mama and his lovable WIFE!lol...I loved my suit! We were one hour early and decided to eat..

It was NRITALAYA AESTHETICS's Iilyar nadanam day. It was nice!! The little kids were SO CUTE!...WITH beautiful little steps, they tried their best to remember the steps and danced so well. I was blown-away with the costumes, music and most of all the children's smile!..

Every dance, I could easily pick out the most passionate, confident, best dancer...being a dancer, you could probably feel the same energy and passion they felt...

I couldn't wait for HEMA AND NANA'S PERFORMANCE!

I would say strongly, Hema was the best in her dance group not because she's my sister, she had everything. That smile that never went away, the elegance and the attitude of the dancer! And Nana was good, she was the cutest..mumbling...smiling and refusing to look up...she reminded me alot of my mother...sweet demure and yet shy... I LOVED THE LAST PART WHERE SHE BENT HER HEAD, FACING HER LEG! god dammit, she's so flexible!...hahaha

I loved the dance drama! well done, to the dance girls!! i mean, You rocked!

After Performance...

We did some photo-taking. We hiked a ride back with mama..AND the journey was funny!My auntie loves tickling others' bones with her accent and gimmicks. nonetheless, I LOVE HER...I love hema and nana...tooo! and of cos, my uncle!

We met up with devan and sat at Burger King for a while...came back home..and wanted my bed!...FINISH!

Boredom!

2008-03-14T08:51:00.000-07:00

I am so happy that I managed to finish my assignment and I am so bored...that I decided to do this.

What is your fav. colour?

blue white and Red!( no, not becos of the America's flag)

What is your fav. no?

24 and 19.

What is fav. hangout place?

My bedroom

What is your fav. guy's name?

VADIveilan

What is your fav. girl's name?

I have lots for this..hahaha...JES. SUBA. NANZ. HEMZY. GOWLI. NANDY. BEANU. NITHZ. SHALZ.UMAZ.SHANNEY.JANA.SYAH.HERLI. EREEN.( if i did leave out your name, i'm sorry!)

What is your fav. attire?

Casual

What is your shopping spot?

ORCHARD or Bugis!

What is your fav. vehicle?

I have always craved for a VINTAGE LOOKING VESPA...still craving!!!

What is your fav. food?

Mummy's cooking!

What is your fav. BRAND of Ice cream?

Ben & Jerry's cherry garcia

What is your fav. brand of clothesline?

CURRENTLY.... Cotton-on...

What is your fav. pick up line?

I dun have one and I dun like getting picked up!

Who loves you the most!

GOD!

Who makes you smile?

My family and those who are around me!

Who makes you mad?

SNOOBISH little brats!

Who knows you well?

MUMMY AND JES!( not even my bf knows me as much as she does...haha..what are sistas 4?)

Who adores you?

My dad, my bf and bruder( on 2nd tots, i can strike my brother's name off)!

Who do you adore?

ADI, SHIVANI, DURGA, ESHWAR AND SABRUUU!

Who would you trade in for a FERRARI?

Noone, i can't drive..when i can, i will think about it..hahahaha!

Who makes you feel excited?

My long-lost boyfren...(when we dun meet for days...n wen i know we r going out..i get very excited...EMO)

Who is your critic?

No need to think...MY BROTHER..!

Who is your best shopping partner?

MYSELF

Who would love to share your bed?

ADITHYA....!noone likes sleeping beside me!

Who pampers you the most?

MUMMY

Who scolds you the most?

The truth.. RAVI ANNA!

Who would you love to have with you 4ever?

HARD DECISION...but I would choose my brother...he would do anything to kip me alive!

Who would you love to throw down the "pit of death"?

MANY!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA...

Who would you choose to be your mentoR?

AKA JES!(IN BANU'S VOICE)

Who is beside you now?

My boyfren...

Who would you prefer?

Noone else( glad its HIM)

A load off my chest...

2008-03-12T07:47:00.000-07:00

I was having thoughts about this post..

Thinking and thinking...and at the end of the day, I decided I am going to speak my thoughts here and if the reader is not going be happy..BRING IT ON!

hahahaha

I love my life NOW! some people have walked out of it for good!

Years ago, I received a LAME phone call from someone...SHE insulted me, broke my heart and questioned me..all that came down then was nothing but TEARS.

I did not like her before.So it made life easier so to say PLS GO AWAY! she was not concerned about my life just a busy body who taught I was this cheap little arrogrant BITCH( assumptions)...

She made me cry when she asked me ' Your father never teach you manners isit? ' " how did he bring you up? "....I CRIED EVEN MORE.

now....hahahahaha..all I do is laugh, looking at all those who thought( and still assume) I was what those bad-mouthers said I WAS!

MY DAD BROUGHT ME UP THE RIGHT WAY! he told me to give respect to those who deserve it and put those who think I-AM-OLDER-SO-YOU-BETTER-LISTEN-UP in their places. My parents don't know about the ISSUE.( not because I am in fault, its because I know they will not keep quiet!)...

People may say, so childish..so many years later and you still talk about it. WAIT TILL YOU GET QUESTIONED ABOUT YOUR UP BRINGING!

Now, I am going to be a undergraduate, stable job, Loving boy friend and a HAPPY FAMILY!

so before you go bitching about others, LOOK AT YOURSELF!

The proud daughter of MR SIVAJI!

Singapore...a better place,maybe not?

2008-02-27T07:47:00.001-08:00

I want to share some experiences.

I was on leave yesterday so I could spend some quality time with my baby. I met a few people who were nice. A BOY who accidently hit me on the bus, turned back and apologized.AN indian girl looked at me in the eye at smiled(the first time)..hahaha and some service staff just make your day.

I was called back to do classses. And he came after his exam to fetch. We went to blue diamond at serangoon road. I had mutton briyani, and I did not like it. Mutton was too hard. the chicken dun briyani which my honey ordered was yummy though.We went shoppin at town.

I cannot resist red! it's my favourite colour NOW!I got myself a red Mango racer back tee, red handphone pouch,a formal top and skirt from GG/5.and 2 shirts as gifts to EARNIE!

I am scared with the escape of the JI fella. how can he?why didn't they? how long?

I bought two teddy handphone charms. and earrings.

I am so addicted to COTTON ON!...cannot wait for my OT pay...

~JI TERRORIST ESCAPED~

2008-02-27T07:47:00.000-08:00

ITS TRUE...

http://www.channelnewsasia.com/stories/singaporelocalnews/view/331477/1/.html

new handphone!!

2008-02-25T09:26:00.001-08:00

i have got a new handphone! a very good second hand handphone! so good, you think its new!

IT NOKIA E 65!

anyway..i took pictures with my camera...changing room at Cotton-on(WHAT I BOUGHT), MY MAHAL KITA, JULIANNA and drawing of me by my student, TEJASVIN!

Something which made me cry...and appreciate children!

2008-02-25T09:26:00.000-08:00

Three letters from Teddy by ELIZABETH SILANCE BALLARD...
(FOR ALL THOSE WHO TEACH AND LOVE TO.....)

Teddy's letter came today and now that i've read it, I will place it in my cedarwith the other things that are important in my life. "I wanted you to be the first to know." I smiled as I read the words he had written and my heart swelled with a pride that I had NO right to feel.

I have not seen Teddy stellard since he was a student in my 5th-grade,15 years ago. It was Early in my career, and I had only been teaching for 2 years.From the first day he stepped into my classroom, I disliked Teddy. Teachers(although everyone knows differently)are not supposed to have favourites in a class, but most especially that they are not to show dislike for a child, any child. Nevertheless,every year there are one or two children that one cannot help be attracted to, for teachers are humans and its human nature to like bright,pretty,intelligent people,whether they are 10 years old or 25. And sometimes, not too often,fortunately,there will one or two student to whom the teacher just can't seem to relate.

I had thought of myself quite capable of handling of my personal feelings along the line until Teddy walked into my life. There wasn't a child I particularly liked that year,but Teddy was most assuredly one I disliked .He was dirty.Not just occasionally,but all the time. His hair hung low over his ears and he actually had to hold it out of his eyes as he wrote his papers in class(And this was before it was fashionable to do so!)Too, he has a peculiar odour about him which I could never I identify.

His physical faults were many, and his intellect left alot to be desired,also. By the end of the first week I knew he was hopelessly behind the others. Not only was he behind; he was just plain slow. I began to withdraw from him immediately.

Any teacher would tell you its a pleasure to teach a bright child.It definitely more rewarding for one's ego. But any teacher worth her credentials can channel her work to the bright child, keeping him challenged and learning,while she puts her major effort in the slower ones. Any teacher can do this. Most teachers do it,but I didn't, not that year.

While I did not actually ridicule the boy, my attitude was obviously quite apparent to the class, for he quickly became the class "goat",the outcast,the unlovable, the unloved. He knew I didn't like him but he didn't know why.Nor did I know then or now why I felt such an intense dislike for him. All I know is that he was a little boy no one cared about, and I made no effort on his behalf.The days rolled on.We made it through the Fall Festival and the Thanksgiving holidays, and I continued marking happily with my red pen. And as the Christmas holidays approached,Teddy would never catch up in time to be promoted to the sixth-grade level.He would be a repeater.

To justify myself,I went to the cumulative folder from time to time. He had very low grades for the first four years,but no grade failure. How he made it, I didn't know. I closed my mind to the personal remarks.

First Grade: Teddy shows promise by work and attitude,but has poor home situation. Second grade:Teddy could do better.Mother terminally ill. Third grade: Teddy is a pleasant boy.Helpful, but too serious.Slow learner.Mother passed away at the end of the year.Fourth grade: Very slow, but well behaved. Father shows no interest.Well, they passed him off four years, but he will certainly repeat the fifth grade.DO HIM GOOD!.I said to myself.

And then the last day before the holiday arrived, our little tree on the reading table sported paper and popcorn chains.Many gifts were heaped underneath,waiting for the big moment. Teachers always get several gifts at Christmas ,but mine that year seemed bigger and more elaborate than ever. There was not a student who had not bought me one. Each unwrapping bought squeals of delight,and the proud giver would receive effusive thank yous. His gift wasn't the last one I picked up; in fact, it was in the middle of the pile. Its wrapping was a brown paper bag, and he coloured Christmas trees and red bells all over it.It was stuck together with masking tape. "For Miss Thompson FROM teddy",it read. The group was completely silent,and for the first time i felt conspicuous-embarrassed because they all stood watching me unwrapping the gift.As I removed the last bit of the masking tape,two items fell onto my desk;a gaudy rhinestone bracelet with several stones missing and a small bottle of dime-store cologne,half empty. I could hear the snickers and whispers, and I wasn't sure I could look at Teddy."Isn't this lovely,"I said as I tried to place the bracelet on my arm. Would you help me fasten it" He smiled shyly as he fixed the clasp,and I held up my wrist for all of them to admire. There were a few hesitant oohs and aaahs, but as I dabbed the cologne behind my ears, all the little girls line up for a dab behind their ears.

I continued to open the gifts until I reached the bottom of the pile.We ate our refreshments and the bell rang.

The children filed out with shouts of "See you next year!" and "Merry Christmas!" but Teddy waited at his desk.When they had all left, he walked towards me,clutching his gifts and books to his chest. "You smell just like my mom" he said softly. "Her bracelet looks pretty on you,too. I'm glad you like it." He left quickly. I locked the door,sat down at my desk and wept,resolving to give Teddy what I had deliberately deprived him of - a teacher who cared.

I stayed every afternoon with Teddy from the end of the Christmas holidays until the last day of school.Sometimes, we worked together. Sometimes he worked alone while I drew up lesson plans or graded papers.

Slowly,but surely,he caught up with the rest of the class. Gradually, there was a definite upward curve in his grades. He did not have to repeat the fifth grade. In fact, his final averages were amongst the highest in the class, and although I knew he was moving out of the state when school was out, I was not worried for him. Teddy had reached a level that would stand him in a good stead the following year,no matter where he went. He had enjoyed a measure of success. ,and as we were taught in our teacher training courses," SUCCESS BUILDS SUCCESS."

I did not hear from teddy until seven years later,when his first letter appeared in my mailbox.

Dear Miss Thompson,
I just wanted you to be the first to know.I will be graduating second in my class next month.

Yours very truly
Teddy Stallard

I sent him a card of congratulations and a small package- a pen and a pencil gift set. I wondered what he would do after graduation. Four years later, Teddy's second letter came.

Dear Miss Thompson,
I wanted you to be the first one to know.I was just informed that I'll be graduating first from my class.The University had not been easy,but I liked it.

Yours Very truly
Teddy stallard

I sent him a good pair of sterling- silver monogrammed cuff links and a card,so proud of him I COULD BURST!And now today, Teddy's third letter.

Dear Miss Thompson,
I wanted you to be the first to know. As of today I am Theodore J.Stallard,M.D. How about that!!

I'm going to get married in JULY, 7TH TO BE EXACT. I wanted to ask if you could come and sit where my MOM would sit, if she was here.I'll have no family there as Dad died last year.

Very truly yours,
Teddy stallard

I'm not sure what kind of gift one send a doctor on completion of medical school and state boards.Maybe I'll just wait and take a wedding gift, but my note can't wait.

Dear Ted,
Congratulations! You made it, and you did it yourself! In spite of those like me, and not because of us,this day has come for you. God bless you.Ill be at the wedding with bells on!.

world for the strong hearted...

2008-02-21T07:24:00.000-08:00

I am writing about something I READ....
A post posted for the month of love..
something that made me cry and I could never stop...

A LOSS...
of a little one even before she came to the world...

I realised
HOW PRECIOUS LIFE IS...and how everyone looks at it

The little one will be loved and remembered...alwaysss...

TOO many things, Too little time!

2008-02-20T06:23:00.000-08:00

So much has happened...

AT work, the tension is rising, people leaving, coming, bitching...

I KNOW THis is the working world...but I am not asking a PERFECT workplace. I LOVE BEING WHERE I AM.

I just hate the fakers and liars who freaking stab others back. THE USE OF LANGUAGE. pardon me, PROFESSIONAL?! some people say they are, they are not. Intolerance level of zero percentage. WHATEVER. I HATE BEING IN THE MIDDLE, LISTENING TO 2 SIDED STORIES. I feel very burdened. I dun share my career stuff with anyone, not even my boyfriend. I feel I am going through emotional stress because of the other people.

I pray to the GOD, to make my workplace as it was before.....

CALL ME EMO, I DUN FREAKING CARE!

THIS IS NOT ABOUT WORK!

AND some peoeple just get on my nerves...

I feel annoyed and I am that kind of a girl who would throw it your face and say " get the f out of here"

No, I DUN WANNA BE THE BYTCH!but YOU keep pushing your limits, I am going to blow my top off. I hope the sane side of me will keep me calm and wise....

JUMPER REVIEW

We went for a movie date after a long time. Jumper was supposedly good. I waited for him to finish up his work. I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD FOR THE MOVIE( tho i was excited till the evening). I loved being in his arms. I am not give you the plot. It is a good movie to see...cool!reaalli nice! but i was disappointed with the ending...so bleauh!...I AM STILL CRANKY!

CONFESSIONS: AFTER MY PAY, THE FIRST THING ON MY SHOPPING LIST IS A NEW PHONE!

my valentine's day gift!...to him!

2008-02-15T08:19:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day with my most beloved...

2008-02-15T08:02:00.000-08:00

I was very excited to be going out with my boyfriend on the 14th of feb 2008. It is a very special day. I had bought a long skirt and a on-sale simple white tee from ESPIRIT. i knew i was going to blow him away...hahahahaha...

The moment I entered the staff room, everyone started envying my skirt..*winks*. My ladies never fail to bring a smile to my face in the early morning.Ereen was so funky with her attire. My student gave me a teddy bear with a rose. SO NICE!...

I couldn't wait...to meet him. My laptop was dying and I needed my brother to help bring me the charger. But he was late. THE boyfriend reached my workplace at 6.45, changed and got ready to leave. My bro was so cute. He helped us bring vadi's bag so vadi could carry a smaller bag.

We went to MARRAKESH!!beautiful place!on the swing! euphoric me!

HE gave me his gift. I couldn't believe what I had received. He did SCARP BOOKING! like a story! the exact same thing as mine. Just that mine was computerised. and GOWRI made a handphone charm...my name! so niceeee! i love it deary!

the ambience is so BEAUTIFUL..U NEVER WANT TO LEAVE. very middle eastern setting!

The food was alright. No ala-carte. they had a standard MENU.which was abit of TURN- OFF!

We took lots of photos. walked hand in hand. exchanged kisses. and told each other, I LOVE U!

PICTURESSS!

2008-02-15T07:39:00.000-08:00

_Wedding bells ringing_?

2008-02-11T06:55:00.000-08:00

I LOVE WEDDINGS. the smile on everyone's face. The envy of other girls while looking att he bride. She would look the best...the glow would make her look so gorgeous than others. My girlfren jus got MARRIED. at tank road. I want to get married there. My parents got married there, and it has sentimental values to me. When I go for weddings, I LOOK FORWARD to see the bride and groom sitting down beside each other...and smiling at each other. i would see if they do exchange words...I WOULD!lol...I would prob. say NO MORE GOOD FOOD!

hahahahahaha

What I would look for? Looking at my loved ones breaking their heads, screaming at me(asking me to shut up) and being there for me. I know they will all be there. Lol. I CANNOT WAIT FOR THE VERY SPECIAL DAY THAT WILL MAKE ME FEEL SO PRECIOUS AND LOVED!

No! I am not desperate to get married. I just love weddingS.ANY WEDDING!

anyway..next in line...is *ahem ahem* i cannot wait to see her feel tensed, irritated and most of all DAZZLE!now the person would know that i m talking about her.but BABE, it is a day we all are waiting for. and will wait.hahahahahaha...

ANYWAY, i would like a greenweddingsaree!lol.! gowri, let your mum know!

i wanna dance 4 dis song? anyone interested?lol!

2008-02-07T02:22:00.000-08:00

random opinions

2008-02-04T07:23:00.000-08:00

I have so many things lined up that blogging is in the back of my mind. I did lots of stuff though, went shopping at the expo, john little sale!..Got my baby his valentine's day gift!. Went out with my colleagues to bugis. Saw a movie with my girlies.27 dresses. Not bad. it is girlfren movie! i LOVED every single second of it. I jogged 3.4 km wid my baby. and last but not least, i had to attend my paternal's cousin wedding. I was so LOST. I knew noone and hoped we would leave soon. MY dad looks like his dad's side. They are so good looking. i did not have fun. I do not wish to elaborate. did some bonding wid my little one, gaya3. I realised i never took th efforts ti know her. I wished i was closer to her.If i coukd with it..hamzy and nana..i can do it with her tooo.

He booked the swing seat at MARRAKESH for valentine's day!grt!...lol

I have been doing some thinking...and came to the conclusion that i am going to save 300 dollars every month. I know that not's a lot but just for a start!....with a huge pay cut(becos of my blocked leave)...i can still survive...cos i worked 29 days last mth...arghhhhh!

i need rest and sleeping...nitez ppl!

thaipusam review...

2008-01-24T06:46:00.000-08:00

I was checking the net about the review on thaipusam.I got someone who had the same concerns or issues I had in mind.

the link
http://clawsandjaws.wordpress.com/2008/01/23/thaipusa-thirunaal-andru-on-the-day-of-thaipusam/

check it out!

dance att he birthday..

2008-01-20T07:40:00.000-08:00

sisterhood has never been better..

2008-01-18T00:41:00.000-08:00

I am pondering about the word 'sisters'. Everyone has different meanings to it. There was this person who taught me SISTERHOOD.someone who is not near yet very dear to my heart( i would say, all of her sisters.) she is noone else than NALINI AKKA. She treats all her younger sisters like her little babies and is very protective of us! She taught me that sisterhood is about listening, speaking and laughing your hearts together. She taught that crying when you're upset, when you're with your sisters does not embrass you abit.( the time, when i was home sick at aussie during her wedding). SISTERHOOD is very much special to me. I hate it when people bring my sisters down.( u would feel the same tooo,ryte?) The karpayah family's granddaughters are very strong in character and LOUD!. now that does not make us unfeminine and sexy!

hahahahahahaha...

I have grown stronger with my sisters. We have differences. We have learned how to love our differences and embrace each other with love. Now, JES! she has been my pillar since I was a little girl. The amount of time we have fought and argued( i am luffing), was so silly. NEVERTHELESS, she always stood by me. When i whined about my boo, she would listen to my side and tell me to be more giving. A definite woman with lots of determination and intelligence. It is very hard to get someone so forgiving and patience in my life. MY SISTER JES.!

Hemalatha. mY dancing twin! hahahaha... this timid girl who has attitude beneath the shy exterior. She is such a sweetheart! I have gotten close to her after don-know-how-many-donkey-years. People may go..You're cousins? and now only you're close? lol. we have different parentage, dude! They are closer to their maternal sides. They never forget their paternal sides tho. I LOVE MY SISTERS TONS! I love the way she sways and so much of attitude in her. join us next time in a comp? lol. Now pls ask , your mum to stop staring!lol

Nandu!the little one. The toughest one. she is the smallest among all of us and yet if anybody was to pick on us. SHE would be the first to step out and point the finger at you! FIGHTER GIRLS?! i dun care what you are going to call us. She is a tiny girl with a sweet smile and a die-hard attitude.I simple love the way she shows her sisters that we mean the world to her. now, U DO MEAN THE WORLD TO US TOO!

THANKS TO BE WITH GOD...FOR PUTTING US TOGETHER BACK LIKE A HAPPY FAMILY!

*now hemzy and nana, treasure everyone...i mean everyone in life!even if they dun, love and be loved!

fai's birthday at spize after work.

2008-01-16T21:23:00.000-08:00

It was tuesday, 15th of january 2008. The big day. PONGAL. i culdn't go because I am having my period. I followed my colleagues to celebrate fai's birthday at SPIZE!some pictures and the video!

Day at work.

2008-01-10T04:47:00.000-08:00

I am being so faithful to my blogspot.

I received two gifts today. A box of chocolate from shangri-la! and a thank you card!

I had fun today. The k1 kids always cheer me on and the K2 kids always make me laugh.

Jeff Dunham and the dead terrorist!

2008-01-10T04:36:00.000-08:00

I'll kill you! I LOVE THIS VIDEO!so funny. sorry if you get offended!

National service. with respect!

2008-01-09T06:51:00.001-08:00

I know i am touching a very sensitive issue, I hope i don't get jailed for talking about this openly. If you have read the NEW paper in the morning today, it had a article of Pck child. He was rude to his senior officers so he was charged. He had other bad conduct as well so he had to bear with it. I am just sad that the army goes down very hard with its soldiers. How many of the men in Singapore look forward to National service? I have had brothers, friends who would dread to go to camp. I agree that National service teaches these men responsibility and they come to the world as matured adults. The men share something in common. THE ARMY MEMORIES.

When I sit amidst of army men, they speak in their own lingo, that's how fantastic the army has moulded them. The other part which disappoints me, The use of profanities. I do not understand why the army cannot treat the men with respect. "WHAT THE FUK U DOING"? "IS THIS HOW U FUKING TOK TO ME?". i feel very disturbed.How would you expect the young men looking forward to national service? are you just going to say, that's the army, u have to live with it? what feeling do you get when you screw someone? SHIOK?!

Soldiers have hearts. They can feel. I am not saying set up a heaven and let them be angels. The least can be done is GIVE AND TAKE RESPECT. you have authority, people would look up to you naturally. ARMY MEMORIES are the ones that last through a singaporean guy's life. They get a first wife when they enter the army. They get buddies who last a lifetime. They treasure their uniform ( my dad refuses to throw his).

Not many, like the army life. They hate it! and bitch about it becos of their bad experiences. I am not taking sides. The army has pros and cons. I just hope they will look at the men, as gifts to the country, encourage and bring them up rather than insult and crush them down!

i love shrek babies!

2008-01-09T06:51:00.000-08:00

some edited pics...i love!

2008-01-08T06:55:00.000-08:00

it is SKIN DEEP!

2008-01-05T06:41:00.000-08:00

Today was saturday. I have my enrichment classes. I saw all my kids coming back to class, growing and growing. They NEVER failed to greet me with smiles and happy new year wishes. I was teaching the 4-5 year olds. They learn phonics, reading and writing. My first class was well-behaved and as they have been with me, they were really crazy and doing their work. My second class was science play. I had 3 children. hahaha.. we still had fun. I skipped lunch(diet). I had a new parent toddler class. I was medicore. My battery was dying out!

I finished class at 3.30. I had another class at 4.30. I rested for a while and prepared stuff. It was a new class and the children are seeing me for a first time. I was prepared for cryers..screamers! To my amazement, the first few kids who stepped into class were settled! I saw a round belly lady at the door. I ignored her. She asked me, "room 6?" i replied yes!. Oh god! Why is she coming to my class?

WHY DID I FEEL LIKE THAT ABOUT THIS CHILD.?

FLASH BACK.

the child, N used to study in the kids play class(playgroup)-independent class. My colleague who was dark skinned was rejected by the child. When I say rejected, She wailed and screamed that she did not wanna go into class. My colleague got upset. The parents said they prefered only a fair skinned teachers. I was there when the parents were complaining to my boss. I was so disgusted to see modern parents to be discriminating the teachers and race. I told my boss, I would not want her in my class because I would not accept it if the parent blames my skin for the child's tantrum. I pitied the parents for a narrow mind and the child, of what she has been put through.

COMING BACK....
I smiled, kept calm. She walked in with a crackling face. She looked at me and smiled. I smiled back. I saw her bag and asked if she liked the charachter in it and she went no, i only like mickey mouse! So i asked if i could draw her a mickey mouse, she got closer. She hugged me. AND SHE DID NOT CRY!she did not even cry when her other friends were sobbing for parents. She yearned for my attention and held on to my hand. I WAS SO HAPPY!she is so brilliant and she has got a very special spot in my heart!

Her mum spoke to me after class, she was suprised her daughter had adjusted herself to me and was proud of her child. I looked at her and said "mummy, it is not about what colour or how the person looks, children accept everyone open heartedly, WE AS ADULTS must not teach them to see the differences in the wrong way."The mum smiled and told me, she was pleased and she had already prepared herself thinking her daughter would not attend class ANYMORE. But after today, she said she will come back evey week!

I feel very glad that I was able to show a child, whatever is on the surface does not make the person,it's SKIN DEEP!

I LOVE TODAY!

YEAR END PHOTOS....!

2008-01-04T06:23:00.000-08:00

They are over due photos. I managed to find the file...I loved that day so much! i miss the children lotsss..

i love my skinnn!

2008-01-03T07:37:00.000-08:00

hahaha..SKIN IS FASHION!...

i am very happy with the simple and well-spaced lay out of this blog skin!

I am doing away with my tag box.

I hav a comment section. Just leave me a comment if you wanna share anything.

loved and will be loved!

my 4 year anniversaryy!

2008-01-03T04:46:00.000-08:00

Something happened yesterday. so I DELETED my pics!arghhhh! now its back to normal! NVM...

I never updated on the splendid night I spent with my darling boyfriend. Though, it was very hectic, tiring and simple. He never fails to make me feel like a princess.

date:23rd december 2007

venue: uncle prakash's house,vivo city

The day where bajans were super duper HOTTT!!and food was fantastic! Me and Boo had to rush over to prabhu's house for lunch. He ate. we took a cab to his place. changed and headed to VIVOCITY! I did lots of walking and shopping.

walked and walked. We ended up at thai accent! a restuarant highly recommended by ME! I am a fuss pot when it comes to service. I truly enjoyed the service, ambience and food. The servings are generous and food is so tasty!..You can share a dish with your partner. Our bill came up to 40 singapore dollars inclusive of GST AND SERVICE CHARGE!It was really worth the money!

ole 2008!

2008-01-01T04:34:00.000-08:00

I am glad that year 2008 is here! Year 2007 was not so bad.I had a new job which started with lots of bad confrontations. I had a new problem to tackle, my weight issue again!It was also memorable.I went clubbing with my colleagues and my colleagues are ROCKING!My boyfriend got a bike! My brother got a bike! mega mass bhajan! singing at vadapathira kaliamman temple for theemethi! fire walking at MALAYSIA...hahahaha...my memories at BINTAN! a trip witH my darlings(NO ADULTS) is unforgettable. I wanna do it again this year!we welcomed the new year watching the video we took. we were laughing our heads off!

year 2007 made me a stronger and much more confident person. I am in love with my boyfriend's family. I learn how to give and take in relationships. It was my 3rd year welcoming the new year with my dearest. Every year had been different. I welcomed the new year with a bang! with his family. We had a barbecue at bishan. It was fun!and I came over to my place. MORE FOOD!!yummy!i ate just a bit.watched the video.went to sleep.

Woke up. We went to veeramuthu munesswaran temple for the new year prayers. They pierce and do very fanatic stuff. They pierced thankis and did the pulling stuff called vettumullu. really scary. Singaiyadi was fantastic. Tho dressed simply, they were the BEST! among the elaborated dressed groups!. We went near our house to have lunch. I left my keys behind closed doors. So dad had to break the door.I felt so bad...so 2008 AIN'T GONNA BE BAD!cannot wait for birthdays and special days!

I am looking at the brighter side...

i love my colleagues! gila girlies!x'mas shopping!

2007-12-21T23:03:00.000-08:00

I went to work the next day, to sort out the toys. I did my class. I was wearing my new TOP, beige MANGO SKIRT and blue tights! my dad looked at me before he left home and called me "crazy".lol. I loved d way i looked! I was going out with my girlies!Ereen.Earnie.Herli.Yani BARNEY!. Ereen and I left school to seoul garden at TAKA. food was good! The coffee chicken was so YUMMY!and mussells! We started to laugh and talk and eat. Earnie, out of the blue, said "shal we do a gift xchange?" I got so excited, cool! I suggested the way that sastha chellams play it. U write your gift and we get it. and You find out who asked for it after you xchange.

They were in it. 5 of us.small but crazy group of girls. Everybody had a different way of asking their gift! the value...not less than 50! I scribed " I would love a "cotton-on" shorts size 12. blue or green!". I got some one who scribed " a nice clutch bag.possible black with blings. I KNEW it was YANI!. so i needed to get something nice for someone like her! We went separate ways! I walked all around to get a nice one. Before deciding on a GUESS black clucth bag! i knew she would love it. I bumped into ereen and went shopping with her. We met at bread talk!

everyone came. Ereen started first, she read what was on the paper she got. HERLI was blushing. she got her ettusais eyeshadow palette and a seahorse pendant from 4 ver 21!so nice!...

Next was me, i read out mine, and YANI was giggling. She took it out and saw the gift, she screamed. SHE said " this is the bestest christmas gift ever!". I hugged her. I was happy!

Yani read hers , a cd from a band. She got Earnie, the Cd and a fluff bag! so nice!!earnie was grinning with joy!

Next was Herli, she was in a mess because of me. She did not know what was "cotton-on" she taught it was a undergarment shop. She went to FAR EAST plaza to check out the shops. hahaha. The shop was located at WISMA ATRIA. She went to a shop to query and they told her to go to the condom shop!..lol. they mistook it GARTER PANTS!.she repeated herself and another sales girl told her where it is. we were all laughing our heads off! I LOVE MY SHORTS!so niceee!!herli burley I love u !

Earnie had to get a light brown i.p. zone shoes . sadly, the shoes were out of stock island wide. So she got the person something else. It was a skull bag! Ereen is into skulls and pirates because of JOHNNY DEPP!i had fun with my laydees.

I BOUGHT GIFTS FOR JES, DEV!!hope they will like it!

Met my baby at amk. To see alvin and the chipmunks! I love it! I adore theodore and reminds me of SHIVANI!chubby cheeks! simon is so-like- Vadiveilan!..specsy and hot! ALVIN is a replica of MY-first-prince-AADHITHYA!rascal!

went gift shopping for MY MUM,VADI'S MUM,GOWZ,GEJAX,my dearest sisters Banu and Nanz. i wrapped them.wait for x'mas.coming!lol.

sunday with HIM!

2007-12-21T22:39:00.000-08:00

I went shopping with my boifren on sunday. After so long, we took the public transport from his place to little india. His bike is on MC!hahaha. He got whatever he needed to get for his secret friend. We walked down to see at the workshop if the bike is ready. The guy said he needed 3 or 4 days!He was upset!..so we took the MRT to plaza singapura. I wanted to buy lots of stuff! PAY WAS IN! the first shop i headed to was LA SENZA. he stood outside. He's very shy! I am shy if there are guys are looking on when their girlfriends are choosing their lingere. I feel very-out-of -place! It is everyone's different opinions. We headed down to DOROTHY PERKINS. It was packed with laydees,WE went out. Browsed through the guess boutique. I am eyeing for the guess watch!lol. I went to a scrap booking shop, MADE WITH LOVE. I chose the materials i needed for my special. I was personalizing the gift with my own touch! I was standing at the counter. When i turned and looked at the boss, she was pretty, someone very familiar.

She looked at me and said "DEVI"!!.I was like " oh shit!", what is her name?. i UTTERED "hi,mrs hmmm...ong!". I was thrilled that my secondary one history teacher, actually rememebered my name! THANKS GOD, I LOOK THE SAME! she is the boss with two other partners! I was so happy...She was a "favourite teacher" among the children in school. really nice with a smile to greet you everyday. I am glad ... i am still rememebered by her!

We headed down to " Dorothy perkins " again. and i Got myself a turquoise shirt and blue footless tights!..crazy ryte!lol. We had to rush home and get ready to head down to changi ramar temple for bajans! i was wearing my favourite..white top!

Bajans started before we could go. so me and muthu rushed to sit down..and sing! so nice!!..than head down to AMK S-11 to have dinner

women lie for the BEST

2007-12-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

This is to all the women!

One day, when a seamstress was sewing while sitting close to a river, her thimble fell into the river.When she cried out, the Lord appeared and asked, "My dear child, why are you crying?" The seamstress replied that her thimble had fallen into the water and that she needed it to help her husband in making a living for their family. The Lord dipped His hand into the water and pulled up a golden thimble set with sapphires. "Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked the seamstress replied, "No. "The Lord again dipped into the river He held out a golden thimble studded with rubies. "Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. Again, the seamstress replied, "No." The Lord reached down again and came up with a leather thimble. "Is this your thimble?" the Lord asked. The seamstress replied, "Yes." The Lord was pleased with the woman's honesty and gave her all three thimbles to keep, and the seamstress went home happy.

Some years later, the seamstress was walking with her husband along the riverbank, and her husband fell into the river and disappeared under the water. When she cried out, the Lord again appeared and asked her, "Why are you crying?" "Oh Lord, my husband has fallen into the river!" The Lord went down into the water and came up with George Clooney." Is this your husband?" the Lord asked. "Yes," cried the seamstress. The Lord was furious." You lied! That is an untruth!" The seamstress replied, "Oh, forgive me, my Lord. It is a misunderstanding. You see, if I had said 'no' to George Clooney, you would have come up with Brad Pitt. Then if I said 'no' to him, you would have come up with my husband. Had I then said 'yes,' you would have given me all three. Lord, I'm not in the best of health and would not be able to take care of all three husbands, so THAT'S why I said 'yes' to George Clooney. And so the Lord let her keep him.

The moral of this story is:

Whenever a woman lies, it's for a good and honorable reason, and in the best interest of others. That's our story, and we're sticking to it.

Signed, All Us Women

SHOW MORE LOVE!

2007-12-18T23:46:00.001-08:00

I went to KKH to visit pooja because she was admitted again. I was shocked at the nureses' attitude in the children ward. It was ward 55. The nurses were all busy. There was a new born baby. a few days old. In the middle of their reception. I was upset seeing a baby in the ward. The baby vomitted. I was so shocked because noone took notice of it.There was a fat nurse who walked up and down but not even once, she bend to smile or look at the infant.

I called a nurse and told her, that baby vomitted. She replied defensively," ya we will clean la". I was wtf?! You, nurses did not even notice it till someone told you and you show me attitude. there was this nurse in green uniform. A BLOODY MINAH!. i have nothing against malay girls but this one looked like she came to sashay at her werkplace with the amount of makeup. shhhhesh. A student from ngee ann poly went up to her and said. what time do i feed the baby and what do i feed? Her reply, with a very atuthorative voice, go look at the board!. What is so wrong if you had to share your knowledge. What if she read wrongly, why sabotage someone?

I have nothing against nurses! IT is a job which requires lots of patience and passion. I look up to nurses and respect them beyond words. My best friend is a nurse! I know its not a easy job. You have to learn how to shine those bad times. come on, IT IS A INFANT!show the baby more love. I am very upset with what i saw.

I hope i have not upset anyone here. I do not work as nurse. if you are going to rant about, you must work as a nurse than you know. for your info, i have picked up poo, washed away vomit when i worked as s childcare teacher. so stop thinking, you have a dirty job and people do not understand. if it is dirty, please quit!

I WILL NEVER DELIVER MY CHILD IN KKH. OR ADMIT MY CHILD THERE. enough said.

~hemzy and nanz~ dis one for you!

2007-12-18T23:46:00.000-08:00

I went out with my two growing younger sisters. HEMALATHA and NANDHINI. it has been so long since we went out. I love the bonding sessions with my sisters. We wanted to do manicure but it was full. WE changed our minds and headed to causeway point! We did lots and lots and of bitching. How they felt and how we felt. We could finish our sentences for each other. It felt so good. We had bites. We ate roti john and honey-fried chicken wings. we spoke about alot of things. And hema, BITCHES EXIST!c and this one is from hell. So don't worry, angels are looking and calculating her sins!MOVE ON AND ROCK ON.!Don't let her bring you down.

We went to swensens for ice cream. so yummy! I bought products from body shop and joined them as a memeber again! I went back home to find 2 sweethearts at my place, AADHITHYA and AMRITA.they are staying over until a new maid comes. I love them so much!

~my dream song with HIM~

2007-12-16T06:16:00.000-08:00

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you S
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come So far we are
so close

How could I face the faceless days If I should lose you now?
We’re so close To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are So close So close And still so far..

tis the season to be jolly..FA LA LA LA LA LA !

2007-12-11T06:33:00.000-08:00

I am in the mood for celebration already. My colleague said this to me...devi, it's like you are celebrating the festival. I told her, i do not know why, but i give alot during christmas. I PICK MY GIFTS with a reason and make sure its just-not-off-the -shelves. I got my first gift on saturday..A RED WINE! I do not know how to drink wine. It is in the bar counter. The second gift came from a parent who ordered it from online! It is a earring holder and hold up to 128 pairs!!SHE took an effort to see my dangling earrings and get me something practical. I gave her a thank you hug.The child and family will be flying off to US! I WILL MISS U CARLIN!!

I went dinner with My BETTER HALVES,JD! I was supposed to go jogging with vadi but it was raining. So we met them at northpoint and we went to sakura to eat.YUMMY! we went to swensens for ice cream!..AND we were discussing about issues.marriage!...I AM GIGGLING!..anyway when i was leaving, dev handed me a guess plastic bag which he was holding since he met us. I thought Jes bought herself something. When he said, its for you, I SCREAMED!i giggled, and walked out of swensens to scream more! i LOVE the bag. Pink and super eye-catchy! Inside the bag! classic bling bling red "D" earrings(now you will know why i need an earring holder!) anyway guys, I LOVE IT!!!

* muacks to both!

suprise birthday!lol.for his mum!

2007-12-05T07:37:00.000-08:00

I had work today.fun but tiring. AFTER work, i smsed gowz and vadi if their mum had cut the birthday cake. dey replied..no? y ah?!..hahahaha..same! and i asked dem if they wanan celebrate. take-away food and a cake!...so met vadi at AMK HUB!lol.raining cats and dogs. we bought cake from bengawan solo..chocolate because he insisted his mum loves chocolate!..than he went to buy murtabak and i went to get chicken wings..barbecued ones! and we met again. he bought 20 piece nuggets and 2 large fries...so much of food. Got on the bike. I can go marketing on a bike.lol.anyway reached there. vadi put the cake outside, and i bought the food in. Vadi's mum was busy in the kitchen, i smuggled the cake in..lol. me and gowri were like giggling and shivering like crazy!kakakaka...went out..ate and saw DEAL OR NO DEAL!fun!the geeky gang!

Cleaned up. felt so full. and the siblings decided to do the candles and light up. I was keeping myself busy, painting my nails.lol.Pink coat first.the siblings came out with the cake and surprised her. She was shrieking, lol. than she went " take photo with this dress"..hahahha...cake feeding and i continued painting my nails!I HAD FUN!i always do...

bloggin after a vACation!

2007-11-30T08:20:00.001-08:00

I am sleepy...very sleepy!

I went to vadi's house after work. saw planet galatta.so funny!. and I think Udhaya suits the cutsy ditsy charachter she played. SO NATURAL!.kakakakakaka..and watched sila nerangalil.NIce drama. saw sivaji and gowri and i started to do our nails.FUN!LOL.i am tired!gowri has d fotos. these are photos i took using vadi's moblie. I DECIDED TO CALL THEM..."VOODU DOLLIES".weird but i like!

collage of photos taken at aaeta's house and work!and karthigai!

2007-11-30T08:20:00.000-08:00

A QUESTION which is irking me!

2007-11-21T19:48:00.000-08:00

DO YOU THINK EXPERIENCE WEIGHS MORE THEN QUALIFICATIONS? FLOOD MY TAG BOARD WITH YOUR VIEWS. bECOS...i m confused! thanks cheerios!

~THE POWER OF A FATHER~

2007-11-21T07:03:00.000-08:00

I went for a complimentary movie.
* compliments from DEVAN mama * We went to watch a Movie " GAME PLAN". It is so so funny!. It reminded how my dad made sacrifices for me. How he would stand in between all the mums during my graduation to make me look pretty. My mother knows Nuts about make up. My dad never gave up hope on me.How he would wait for me when my dance classses are still going on.How he told an IDIOT if he messed around with me again, he would be in for trouble.How he wiped away my tears with his hard-worked hands. How he makes me feel like a PRINCESS.How he would always support me in whatever I did.How he was always there just to see me dance or sing.How he would say he's daughter was a degree holder.If i can achieve my dreams and dared to go ahead without fear,it is because He taught me how to have determination and discipline.

ANYWAY It is such a beautiful movie.go watch it if you can!

I love you very much daddy!

pics from shivani's birthday!n clubbin wid 17 ppl!lol

2007-11-17T08:14:00.000-08:00

~CUPID striking again?!~

2007-11-15T08:04:00.000-08:00

I am dead tired. I am having my period. I am having SUPER HEAVY FLOW!Its draining off my energy. I had to run here and there to get stuff. I am so tired.I had to go to viky's house for deepavali dinner and hemzy and nana's place for visitng. I looked so "unglamourous" in my so-glam-yellow-suit! I hate PERIODS!lol. how ladies complain about it and how some women do not feel "women" when they suffer from irregular periods. I am having fun with my colleagues, busy with the graduation and concert. I shared murtabak.That is all I had. I cannot imagine ,when i'm pregnant, reporting to work!esssshhhh! Can i be on maternity leave before my delivery! like 3 months before and after!hahahaha....

SORRY!UPCOMING POST IS MUSHY! PLEASE CONTINUE AT OWN RISK!

Is CUPID striking again! NO! NOT AT A DIFFERENT PERSON...

people say. 4 years,so long, faster get married. wait so long, later marriage would not work out.

i have seen people falling out of their 10 year relationship. I just wanted to say that not everyone cannot make it happen. I know my boyfriend for 5 years. We have been dating for 4 years. In these 4 yearS,things have CHANGED!I have learnt how to be more tolerant and understood him better. We have changed for the better. I stopped having arguements, I learn how to look at the brighter side. MY FAMILY ADORES HIM! I have a family of uncles and aUNTIES who make their children feel that the feelings of ours are valued and respected. My aunties and uncles approved of my decision as soon as my parents were happy with it.lol. OH GOD! I WANNA BE BORN INTO THE KARPAYAH FAMILY AGAIN

I do feel like i'm in love with him for the first time, every other day. He has taken a very special in my heart. That if I ever lose him, I would never wanna find another man.

I still go fluttering, when he sweet talks me!

I love it when he suprises me with his kisses!

I get very excited when he says he's bringing me out tonight.

I feel very happy when he calls me!

I get very upset if he does give me a return call!

I feel super duper SPECIAL when he has his hands around my hips!

I am a DIVA when he's dancing on the dancefloor with me!

I cry and suffer in pain when we fight!

I cannot go a day without talking or hearing his voice!

I hate it when he cannot meet ME, on mondays,wednesdays and fridays!

I glee with joy, when he takes me on rides that gives me the RUSH!

I love him, more everyday!

AND MORE!LOL.

where the fun begins!EVE!

2007-11-12T08:05:00.000-08:00

what's a party widout LOVE AND BEER!

CHINDIANS!

family!

ma granda-MUM!

gorgeous COUSINS~HEMZY AND NANA!

FAMILY!

AUNTIE'S HANDS!

uncle's!

NANA'S HAND!

Left hand done by me,right kalaivani!

Jes's hand after wash.

DEEPAVALI!

2007-11-12T07:46:00.000-08:00

hot girlfriends!

MA TWO MOST WANTED GURLIES!

US WID LOVESS!

WHAT IS A DAY WITHOUT SPARKLES AND U!LOVE YA JES!

bUsy beeessss for DEEPAVALI!

2007-11-11T06:26:00.000-08:00

I had a good deepavali.I baked,cleaned and even organised a henna party in my house amidst my busy time.lol. I had to help mum bake cookies because she was busy sewing saree blouses for my aun,jes and me. so I did 3 types of cookies, cocoa biscuits, sujee and cuppies biscuits.It was fun BAKING.i did baking on sunday. I went to work so had to apply leave on monday so i can finish the baking.

monday!

Henna party.baking of cookies.and good sleep.
I woke up at 11 am.I was tired after all the baking the night before. I had finished the sugee cookies.I had to bake the two cookies by monday because I had to go to work on tuesday. I was finishing the cookies and the girls started coming in.banz and nanz,sangs!. followed by gowri,gejax and vithiya.then came jes and dev.They bought stuff for chocolate fondue!!so I was cleaning up and sangs preparing the chocolate fondue. I took my bath and started doing for myself.lol. gowri and sangz were tired doing for the rest. The party ended at midnight.EVERYONE went home.I was tired that I did not clean up...my brother did it!THANKS!

TUESDAY

work,cleaning up and cleaning

It was a normal routine day.WORK and I went home to do some seriuos cleaning up,I was so tired, sneezing and I went to bed early.TIRED.I COULD NOT WAIT FOR WEDNESDAY.

WEDNESDAY

respects.fun and family.

I always look forward for the eve ever since I was a little girl.It brings the family together. All of us in jes's house laughing,teasing and having lots of fun!.In the morning, we went to the cemetery to do prayers for grandpa, I MISS HIM!we spread out the leave,laid out the food and burned incense sticks. Jes's dad went, he's here.i was like..."wat"...HE REPEATED."HE'S HERE LA, YOU CANNOT SEE AH!". i LOOKED AT JES AND SAID, BABE YOUR DAD IS FREAKING ME OUT!she looked around and said, he's talking about the fly.there was a fly flying around the food. After the prayers, we went hawker center to have breakfast and marketing. Came home, cleaned and had a afternoon nap before going to work with dad and JES'S PLACE! went to buy saree for my grand-mums.dad had work so he drove.stuck in te jam. we were LATE!Prayers at 8. we reached jes's place at 8.20.They did prayers. my cousins were teasing hema's mum, my auntie!.hahahaha.hema looked hot wid her new hairstyle. nana was looking cute!. Prayers done. Jes's mum asked me to apply henna for henne so i did for her 2 hands.NANA'S hand. mY UNCLE wanted a moon and a star!lol. I made jes my guinea pig. we saw the deepavali show!OK OK,MEDICORE!stayed till midnight and went home. did house work. I cleaned the rooms. I vacuumed the house and muthu mopped. I washed the front corridor and put kolam. I slept at 3.30 am.snooooze!

DEEPAVALI-THURSDAY

VISITING,HONG BAOS AND FOOD!

I went temple in the morning with parents and grandmum. perumal temple and waited for my father's elder sister.I was wearing green saree that vadi's mum gave me,green earrings and bright green bangles.my brother was wearing the shirt i bought for him. We went to INDIAN KITCHEN for breakfast. yummy! We went to dad's aunt's place,dropped grandmum at home,went to vadi's place,had lunch and mum was feeling so shy!Went to annae's place! We were first. vadi.me.muthu.amma.dad. lol. waiting for the rest of the gang.it was fun.POMING everyone's nose.lol.deepavali was good!

FRIDAY

open house.broken bed.sleepy night.

It was our turn for open house. dad always thinks differently,does not like to serve the same thing.rice..mutton curry. so we served keema,chicken curry,idilli and appanjala.IT WAS nice seeing everyone together,everyone together.CHICKEN WING was finishing fast.so were the drinks. THEY drank the bottle of absolut apeach finished!..lol..AND SOMEONE BROKE MY BED. i sleep on platform bed now.i cleaned up cans,plates.sang karoke.and i slept like a pig.tired.no more energy.

SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER

I went to work.a full day.After that,went to civil service club to help auntie with shivani.Auntie came late. So I changed my top, wore my blue toga dress. suba,sugu started coming.lol. everyone was there.AFTER her party, we wanted to go down to club at JEANZ...so crowded. so we decided asoka.asoka was ok! MUSIC SUX!the band leader cannot sing.lol. but I HAD FUN DANCING IN THE DANCE FLOOR!!!FUNNNNNNN!that's alll!

BAJANS!fire-walking festival.BHAJANS!~birthday~shopping spree~!!

2007-10-29T08:57:00.000-07:00

The first thing i would like to say, I DID GET MY PAY! And on that friday, I bought doughnuts for everyone!lol.I went to bhajans at some place near telok blangah.they had a stage and we sang there. We waited for the chariot to come. We sang some more songs.My throat was going dry!we headed down to telok blangah crescent to see the bajans there. It was RAGHAVENDRA society.we sat down and started singing bhajans.After that, headed to temple,to meet vadi's family and my auntie. She had bought aadi with her. So she went to buy the ticket for paal kudam,while aadi rested on my lap. It was past midnight and he was so active.hahahaha. After the mother completed her prayers wid gejax, i left with aadi, he slept in the cab. I reached home at 5 plus. I had two hours to sleep before i left for work. I woke up so late. Thank god!, pay was in! took a cab and went to work.i was supposed to go to class but I skipped. I went home to help out at home. Tired. I helped out abit. got ready. BHAJANS WERE HAPPENING. i went to sleep at 12. I went to work on sunday morning. CAB AGAIN. went school(dry...), vadi picked me up, went shopping. bought something 4 NANZ!lol. ate dinner. Went to the GAP boutique. I loved the top. wanted to get similar tee for vadi. No colour or no size. Disappointed. went to his place. changed.waited for him and left his house. We went to the vadapathira kaliamman temple for bhajans.IT WAS FUN!

It has been so long since i had fun like this.lol. missed JES!.than we headed down to south beach road for bhajans.POWER TO THE GIDUGA!..i was growing tired.sleep engulfing my eyes.It rained.Delayed the festival. There was so much of drama, people whacked by whips, rolling around the fire pit, people going into trances...and everyone chanting OM SHAKTHI! The rain stopped! festival continued. I was growing tired.i had to rest. slept on vadi's lap.wen i woke up, sun was shining. My gang of uncles and family only came at about 10 am.it was so nice to see everyone walk down the fire.I was on leave.I thought of going back for a meeting. I couldn't. I smsed ereen that I cannot come!We reached around 11,bathed, ate,slept at 12 and woke up at 9!..vadi came over, had dinner with him,came back home and slept!

ANYWAY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY TWO DARLING SISTASSS!
NANDY-HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!HOPE UR WISHES COME TRUE!
POOJA!-may U overcome Ur fears!happy birthday dearie!

today i straightened my hair, temp,iron,i look like nonsense!...eeeeeee! will never rebond my hair! I went tekha EXPO. bought 2 punjabi suits. 1 for me, and another for jes. looks nice!!!!wanna get more!anyway with my pay,i 've got myself two leggings, royal blue toga-top dress,guess top(red)ilove!,green MANGO top!i wanna get more stuff!hopefully a GUESS BAG!

pissed!

2007-10-24T06:08:00.000-07:00

I went to work, and was greeted with a good news. M Y BOSS WAS DISAPPOINTED WITH ME BECAUSE MY CLASSROOM LOOKED BAD. and her way of handling was holding back my pay. I WAS LIKE..WTH!?!. how could she do that? so un professional i would say. anyway, my Chinese teacher and another staff helped me to do up the class. AND IT LOOKS SO NICE NOW!i hate it when the weekend teachers just abuse my classroom. PLEASE be responsible for your actions. I did not have lunch,or break! It is my pay for deepavali and she does this.HOW SELFISHLY INCONSIDERATE!anyway, i have to speak with her tomorrow.will have to let her know how i feel.

As I was doing my work, this parent came to speak to my colleague. It is not that i despise her. The parent is very selfish and thinks only for her child.I WOULD SAY.Another parent spoke to my colleague about the annoying parent. Complaing and bitching. THEY ARE FRIENDS. kakakaka. some WOMEN!. I want my pay!!!

I have school tomorrow.seeing my classmates after so long.excited.tensedd.

I am experiencing a roller coaster of emotions. I am looking at the bright side!

late..rainy post!

2007-10-22T09:47:00.000-07:00

It is going to be 2 am and I am writing this post. I cannot sleep, why?I do not know the answer.anyway, my wrist hurts pretty bad.the right wrist.It's hurting and causing me discomfort. Anyway, work was FUN today!The children make my day! I did not eat a lot today! I HAVE PUT ON WEIGHT.not 1 or 2. but 5 KILOGRAMS!gosh! i hate standing on the weighing scale. I need to diet.lol. I AM a very self-conscious person. I wanna lose my fat arms and tummy! Pretty satisfied with the rest of my other body parts. I need to start exercising!!!sooooon! JES, WANNA GO TRUE YOGA?* now do not stare at me pls!*

I went hari raya visiting to my dad's friends' place and it was so nice! I decided to bake cookies for deepavali.its been ages since i baked with mummy!I am using face book now, I am glad to have found all my relatives who live lands away from ME!i love technology! my wrist still hurtS. cannot wait for pay day...3 more days!dying for retail therapy!...

still not sleepy

MY WANT-LIST FOR THE NEW YEAR!

2007-10-18T05:29:00.001-07:00

i am too bored. SO I AM GOING TO COME UP WITH A WISH-LIST!for the new year AND WHAT I WANNA GET MYSELF! wanna get me something...hahahahaa!GOWZ, if ur brother has no idea what to get me for our anniversary, just show him this list!hahahaha

I WOULD LOVE...
AN IPOD NANO.
A COACH BAG.
A YUMMY DELICIOUS MEAL AT A RESTUARANT.
A NEW PAIR OF LEVIS.
A FEW PAIRS OF JEANS.
MORE T-SHIRTS-THE LITTLE-MISS EDITION SHIRTS.
A PACKET OF SLIMMING PILLS.
A VEST FROM TOPSHOP.(BECOS BUGIS MARKET DOES NOT HAVE VESTS FOR THOSE WHO ARE ASSET-RICH).
TO WATCH BLACK EYED PEAS IN CONCERT.
A FENDI SUNGLASSES.
AN ALL-EXPENSE PAID SHOPPING EXPERIENCE.N
A MASSSGE IN A SPA.
TO OWN A GUESS SHOULDER BAG.
A BEBE TOP.(A PINK ONE)
A PINK CORSET.
A NEW HANDPHONE( PDA PHONE).
A NIGHT AT AN EXPENSIVE HOTEL WITH MY LADIES.

if i had the money,i would do all this. MONEY is not the only thing, that makes the world go around! IT DOES NOT NEED TO BE BRANDED OR THE GIFT FOR NEW YEAR MAY NOT BE LISTED HERE! nevertheless, I WOULD LOVE ANY GIFTS THAT I RECEIVE and even if i don't...I ALWAYS KNOW..LOVE IS THE BEST GIFT!

on a happier note in a religious tone with a child's music!

2007-10-18T05:29:00.000-07:00

The previous post was sparked by some actions. I am not saying I regret doing it.and i do not wish to speak about it unless, someones probes me. ANYWAY NITZ, thanks for the sms in the morning and I did feel better after the night's sleep. THANKS for those who did feel for me. it is not easy to feel for other people, it is an intelliggence that some cannot achieve!...I AM LOVING COMING BACK HOME AFTER WORK, seeing Aadi running towards me and hugging me!I cannot wait to have my own children!

TOMMOROW'S chokriz prayer at gaya3's house but I CANNOT GO! I got my darn period on SUNDAY NIGHT.irritating.

I cannot wait for sunday!WHY?! I am going to go and do kumbudathananm at south bridge road! what and why is it done! lol. kumbudathanam is when people kneel and lie on the floor, take a few steps and do it again.It is hard to explain it in words.My period would have stopped by then!It's a spirtual experience for me. I have been doing it since I was a very little girl. It has a significant meaning in my life! I would probably do it till my legs tell me "hello!, we cannot carry you". My dad takes part in the fire-walking festival.and so does my brother. I cannot wait to shower in the cold water and hold the holy leaves and the lemon and pray for my loved one's safety. I would be so upset if i miss any of the fire walking festival. Last year, was my brother's first time. I COULDN'T GO!kept calling vadi.checking.checking.and vadi told me, he walked beautifully!.i teared. when i saw the video, i cried. NOW , i know why some of them who were there CRIED!My brother takes on my dad, and i would probably raise my children TO BE SOMEONE like my dad. I'm being very emotional nowdays.

anyway, i would be going this year's fire-walking to witness my dad and muthu and my uncles...walking down the fire to celebrate the victory of the goddess's promise!

LATEST!

the four ,DJVD have been heading out to restuarants lately with a someone very adorable, aadi! THO lovable, he can be quite a rascal! he sticks to jes and dev.and tests everyone's patience.*jes! vadi will be GREAT DAD!ryte* we were going back in the train, he sang songs with me. The auntie beside me said, "handsome ah boy!" and aadi gave his cheeky smile. he said thanks. The auntie asked me something, which made my tummy giggle, she asked if "he's the father" pointing to VADI!(obviously, i'm mistaken for the mum!)to think that, aadi was mistaken for our child,good looking children in our life?kakakakaka..NAH! all i want is healthy children who would love US!children!?i am loving it!

taken during our first year of courtship,i miss my curls!
DARN!i love dis picture!

pics from lagnaa! and cuzzies foto at temple!

2007-10-18T04:46:00.000-07:00

it's just for me!

2007-10-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

I am tired.WHY?!how can you be normal and expect me to just forget everything after a arguement?!It's like YOU-EITHER-COOL-DOWN or YOU-ANSWER-MY-QUERIES. what do you take me for? I do not cry, YES!but that does not mean my heart is made of rock! sighzz! I HATE TO BE UPSET WITH YOU! you know that for yourself. BUT HOW LONG MUST I TOLERATE YOUR SENSITIVENESS WHEN YOU JUST THINK ABOUT YOURSELF. there have been so many issues, in the end, i have to compromise, i have to learn to forgive and forget,i have to ACCEPT IT BECAUSE ITS LIKE THAT!...I CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE!YOU have got to understand that this girl has given almost all her strength up for you, YOU push her out of the limits,she's turning back, and not coming back!You can scream my name,let everyone in the public know that we are having problems.I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THIS DRAMA!i do not know why i am doing this, NO!, my relationship is not going down the drain!I'm not saying this because my family knows you and my friends like you.I TRULY LOVE YOU!even if my dad said no or my friends detested you, YOU WOULD BE THE ONE I WOULD CHOOSE!..and if that means,i cannot marry you, its ok, i would love you 4ever!

tears are rolling down my cheeks as i do this entry!..love has turned me into a matured,strong and a better person. but at times, my love makes me feel pain, burning down in my heart. I CANNOT SPEAK THIS WITH YOU! because you get all worked up and start crying. I HATE TO HEAR YOU CRY!...and do not waste your tears for me!I cannot go a day without talking to you...but.....i cannot live a insecure,tantrum-throwing man! if my departure would make you a stronger, i rather depart!...

LAYDESS WHO READ MY BLOGSPOT!: YOU KNOW WHO I AM SPEAKING ABOUT, I AM TRYING TO VENT OUT MY EMOTIONS HERE, BECAUSE I FEEL A LOT BETTER WHEN I HAVE IN WORDS. PLEASE, DO NOT MISJUDGE HIM!BECAUSE NO1 CAN EVA BE BETTER THAN HIM!a issue in my mind,sealed in my lips and now engraved in my heart!~

Lagnaa..Barefoot Dining!

2007-10-13T00:16:00.000-07:00

I took Mc on thursday,becos i was tired!...spent time at home, slacking and sleeping wid aadi! Jus idling by the computer!..chatting wid my contacts.Jes!.she shared somethings.I listened. and den she suggested hey want to go dining today?..I was like "where?" and she pasted a URL.I clicked on it and it landed me on someone else's blog review on a north indian restuarant "LAGNAA"-bare foot dining!..Interesting, nothing new for indians but looking at the pictures and food(wid prices)..I was like "LET'S GO!"...so we met plans to meet at yishun MRT!I had to take my mc so went to the doctor's. Aadi came along. Jes had to go to bugis, to collect her asignment which she scored A HD(HIGH DISTINCTION).lol.aadi followed her while i went to see the doc. I picked vadi up in a cab.(HIS BIKE IS IN THE INTENSIVE CARE UNIT..KAKAKAKAKA).

WE met in tekha and walked towards upper dickson road!..You can't really see the restuarant becos it is very dimly lit. We waited!aadi was all over DEV and JES!lol. We got space, and i must say, i liked it!it was jus like the other time, at arab st with the girls...cossy.and nice!.WE ordered.SORRY but i do not remember the names of the dishes. The chicken curry was in the spice level 3!..*winks at dev*..he loved it! aadi ate the rice, fish and drank lots of sugar drinks. He kept running up and down with a cheeky smile!lol. Took pics wid jes's phone! Food was yummy! than I had gulfi(north indian ice-cream) and jes had cheesecake with blueberry! I prefered JES'S cheesecake!than we took a walk from dickson road to farrer park Mrt station. I loved the NIGHT!AND Aadi showed his true colours!..nevertheless I LOVE HIM!

the interior,more pics coming soon!

MY wishlist!

2007-10-10T22:04:00.000-07:00

I LOVE GUESSS!!!!!

BEBE!

dat sog to!

2007-10-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

MY PARENTS,BRUDER,SOULSISTA,JES,RAVI ANNA,SARAVANA,MY UNLCES,VADIVEILAN,MY GIRLIES(U KNOW WHU U R)..AND MY LOVES!THANKS FOR STANDING BY ME..NO MATTER WAT!

fav song!

2007-10-10T21:26:00.001-07:00